Pain, sorrow
Hurt, is what I'm feeling at this exact moment. The tears I was holding in spilled like a river….
“Please, don’t! Plea-please don’t… leave me Shawn” I finished in a whisper. Dropping to my knees from the weakness that soared through my legs. He was packing, his back towards me, no words escaped his lips yet… until now.
“No! ... I can’t do this no more Megan!” he roared turning to face me. “You knew I didn’t want kids, and what did you do? You got fucking pregnant!” I flinched at the tone in his voice. I thought when I had this child it would change his feelings of still not having kids, but I thought wrong… guess.
“It takes two to tango Shawn!. I thought that having a kid would change your mind, I- I thought this life could change your mind” I finished.
“Do you want to know why I didn’t want kids with you Megan?” he asked. To be honest at this moment I did but my gut told me to let it go. But as usual I never listened, I nod my head yes. He leaned down to my level. “Because I fell out of love with you, i gave up... i met someone else” He finished. Those words stabbed me in the chest, I lost my breath that it came in pants; I couldn’t breathe.
I didn’t want to believe him, I was to in love, and I love him he couldn’t had cheated…. We’re in love. I shook my head in denial, no… no he’s saying this out of anger.
“I don’t believe you, you’re just saying this out of anger, I love you Shawn an-and you love me too remember” I sobbed, losing my strength and loss of words. He shook his head repeatedly whilst a smirk setting on his face, the smirk of humor. He zipped up his suit case and stormed out of our room, now into the living room. I followed in suit.
“I stopped loving you a long time ago” he sneered.
“No… you promised me! You promised me forever!” I shouted. Tears never flowed out of me this much before in my life; I never felt this much pain… ever.
“Promises are always broken”. Was his last words before he walked out of my life forever, alone with his child? I sat in my own saddens, sniffing the pain away.
“It’s just you and I…little one,” I whispered rubbing my belly.
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Who knew something so little could take away one thing that meant the world to me? Why did life become difficult? Why were lies becoming so easy to tell, hearts so easy to break?
he was right... promises never lasted for ever, his promise was short term. even if me and Shawn weren't married... it felt like eternity was our future... but the closest thing to my future was the living being that grew with in me.
but after those four years... I learned, i grew, i blocked out emotion. i couldn't love again, i couldn't bring that pain to me nor my son again; not to have someone walk out on me again...but all that changed, it all changed when I met him...
when I met... Chris.
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Long Lasting Love
RomanceI thought I had it all... I thought I had everything I wanted planned out, but then I learned you don't get what you want you get what you need... Shawn is what I wanted, not what I need. we had every thing planned after college, we moved in with ea...
