Lost Words

#14

Hello, mom.

Long time since I last wrote. I know. I'm sorry. Snoke found out I've been writing you and decided to punish me. Like as if writing and never getting an answer isn't punishment enough. Right.
I had first thought he was intercepting my letters, but if it took him this long to punish me, then. Well. This is just another hopeless case in my life.
Anyways, was I even planned? I've always wanted to ask that. I mean, you with your... whatever, and dad with all the smuggling. And Snoke in my head making sure I know I'm a burden to you. Which, I know I am, But... Did you guys plan to have a baby?
This is probably a very random letter, right? It's alright. You're not even answering me, anyways. Whoever is getting these letters is probably laughing their arses off at my sentimentality.
It's alright. I'm training to be a Sith. Soon, I will be powerful enough and finish what grandpa started.
This doesn't seem right when I write it, imagine when I talk. Gotta make it work. Seem convincing. Because it is what I want. And if I want to get what I want, then I gotta work pretty hard for that.
What did I write in my last letter? movie night? Hoth! I wrote about Hoth! I think...? Like, I said what happened there, right? Yup, must have been it.
Anyways!! I don't remember much of what happened since then. When I came back Snoke was furious and took me a month to find out why. Then another month to get out of his punishment. Then three more weeks to recover.
Well, I think I can talk about the movie night I had while I was recovering. It was more of a sleepover with movies, y'know? We watched that movie dad likes about this kid traveling space and getting involved in a series of troubles caused by a group of smugglers and then joining their lives.
The two movies they made based on that one. Then we watched that odd romance one with a prince and a civilian girl from Naboo where they fall in love and have to run from their parents and end up- wait! Ain't that the movie you and um uncle Luke watch together? That dad said uncle Luke always cries? I knew I had seen that one before!
We also watched this one about this teenager who entered the army in one of those isolated planets and then he grew up and matured as he lost everyone he had but in the end it was all worth it, cause he fought for what he believed in and all of those emotions.
I don't know if you've watched it, but I think it's my favorite so far! I mean, it was really nice and all of that. And neither Phasma nor Hux made a single noise during it. Seriously, they usually scoff at the movies or make sarcastic comments. It's ridiculous. Like, if you don't like then why are we watching? They never answer me. Idiots.
And then we talked about random stuff until we fell asleep. Although I think we were supposed to be watching a movie that turned out to be a documentary about the Empire. Not that we don't like it, but we sort of know everything about it already, so no need.
But it was really nice to wake up with a company. I had to stay in my quarters while they had work, of course, I couldn't even gather strength to sit up, but for once, my room didn't feel so lifeless in the morning. Or the night. So. Yeah. I enjoyed.
I think that's it for now. If you're really getting these letters and just, I don't know, not answering, I want to say I'm sorry for what I said in the beginning of this. Bye, mom or whoever is getting these. Until the next one.

Love

Kylo Ren