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rip me

hey guys it me lujan 

hahah life is going terrible but okay at the same time

so i have an essay due on the tenth, to kill a mockingbird due on the ninth aka tomorrow and im freaking out

im trying to get really good summaries because i cannot focus when im reading so im doing it on my laptop and i keep procrastinating and its really annoying and i just need to get this off my chest

im almost done with my essay im just really nervous though

and i had competitive cheer clinics yesterday and that added to my stress and i have it tomorrow and then tryouts on thursday and im scared that ill make the team tbh but ill be really dissapointed if i dont,,, tbh idek how i feel because i havent done competitive for school yet so i dont know how practices are or competitions so im nervous

other than that, im over my newest crush, thank god, but still seeing him just scares me though, idk man. and i finally have one crush aka cookie that i talk about a lot. and plus rip me i had a dream with him last night and i think we were a thing?? idk we were acting like it and i want that to happen in real life

WELL okay i need to keep reading summaries on sparknotes so i dont fail english like my brother did (HA CADE GET MERKED) byyyeee