this was the day. the day we mourn skylar. i walk up to the podium and get ready to talk. i see hunter in the crowd. we became close after skylars death.
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"she was a fighter" i started out. "i never saw this coming but i'll admit. it's my fault she's not here right now. i take all the blame one hundred percent. you can blame me and i will agree. skylar was a fun loving beautiful girl who was just put in the wrong situation. we started being friends way back before school. she actually kissed me in kindergarten. i'll never forget that. um we were friends up until i was stupid and turned on her in 7th grade. i'll never forgive myself for that. nor will i forgive myself for doing it over and over again. i asked her out in 7th grade i believe and she said yes. we dated up until our sophomore year as 16 year olds. i broke up with her because i thought she was cheating on me. she wasn't, i was just stupid. then a while later she dated this boy named ryan and they broke up so we could date. she asked me out the last time. i said yes. i honestly think i'm the stupidest person alive. i broke up with her for no reason and started doing bad things to her and then i resulted in bullying her yet again. now we're here. she was the nicest sweetest prettiest girl you could ever meet and i was just oblivious. i don't know what i would be like without her. she kept me happy even if she was sad. she made me laugh even when she was depressed. if i was hungry, she'd give me her food even when she was recovering from anorexia. i couldn't give her anything. she told me right before she passed on that she loved me. i'll never get to tell her that face to face again. she was the brightest color in the universe and i was color blind. i'll never forgive myself. thank you" i said finishing. by now i was crying just as everyone else.
i walked over to her laying in the casket. she looked beautiful in her white dress with lace and no shoes. i did notice the anklet i gave her 7 months ago though. her hair was down straight and she had a white flower crown on top. i kissed the top of her head. she's so beautiful. i wish i could call her mine.
i felt a hand on my shoulder. i turned around to see nobody. then i felt the other hand on the other shoulder. i began to get scared until i heard the faint whispers of oursong. i knew it was skylar.
at the end while we were throwing dirt onto her casket, i felt her hand on my again. this time when i turned around, i actually saw here. she was lighter and faded but still her. it was her spirit. then our song came on. i smiled and she did too. man i love that smile. she's perfect. it was my turn to throw the dirt. i held it up to my face, prayed she'd be better off in heaven. the i dropped it in.
i posted a picture on my instagram. (ignore the 15 years later thing)
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"hey baby" i heard kaylee say as i walked in the door with ryan. "hey" i said back. "oh hey jacob". we're 27 years old now. ryan and kaylee are married and have one 3 year old boy named jason. "hi uncle jacob" he said to me. "hi jason" i said picking him up.
blake and kelsey got married and moved away. they have twins, hayley and harley, and they're 5. mark and stella are engaged and living near me. i, however, haven't dated anyone since skylar. she was my one true love.
"hey i'll be right back" i said to my friends. they yelled back ok. i got in my car and drove to the graveyard skylar was put in. i came here everyday. today i brought i ring.
i got there and said, "skylar is you can hear me, give me a sign. right in cue, just like every day, the wind blew and a maple leaf fell onto my lap. "i know i'm late and all but" i paused, "will you marry me?" i got down on one knee and people probably thought i was crazy.
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he just asked me if i wanted to marry him. i quickly thought of a way to say yes. the ground was a bit wet so i could easily draw in it. i wrote, 'yesjacob.iloveyousomuch!'. i watched a smile rag to his face.
i went over to him and hugged him and he hugged back.
