11/9/2016
Hey...
I don't really know what to write you you anymore.. It's different, I'm getting fatter. I can't fit my jeans I wore a couple weeks ago and I'm hating it. The pregnancy test said negative... But I'm not so sure. I feel how I felt before. You know.. Before I lost your baby the first time. The pregnancy tests said negative last time and that day I lost the baby. I didn't tell your sister that.. I didn't tell her I probably lost it because I was drinking so much then. But I'm not drinking now so... Who knows right?
I don't exactly know, what I'm gonna do if I actually am pregnant. But once again it would be yours... And If I'm not that's good too. I would be terrified to lose another baby.
