Poems of a Lonely soul

Depression

I hide

Hide my pain

Hide my insanity

I tell them i am fine

When i need more time

A clock ticks

And I have picked

Everyday

My choice gets more sublime

I crave the end

I need to hit send

Send me to the hell we bend

I can't survive anymore

The choices I make

Give disappointment

 I don't want to see those eyes

The eyes that stare in sadness

So, I have decided to hide my pain

For your gain

To stop your questions of 

WHY?

And stop the answers 

I AM fine

I WANT TO BE FINE 

I DO

BUT, I DON'T KNOW HOW

HOW DO YOU

How do you help keep the smiles

How do you keep them happy

How long can I continue in this agony

I will not tell the choice i have made

For they will call help

For something I can't explain

They don't understand my need

To keep them happy

They don't see my need to keep them with me

I don't want to be in a mental hospital

I don't want a psychiatrist

I JUST WANT TO KEEP THEM SMILING

As long as they are happy I will keep the pain

I will keep my insanity

I will not tell them the reasons

And I will say good bye

It's not your fault 

But, mine for failing to keep your smiles

I will die

Good bye 

MY love

GOOD bye

My loved ones

Good bye to my family

Good bye to all the good things in life

Good bye

And don't cry

Stay happy 

For my own life that was crappy