Sorry..
I know I shouldve been there
And im sorry
But I felt as if loving u meant losing myself and I was tired losing myself , being lost
I figured that being there for u was like inflicting self harm , destructive, devastating, depressing
Like if id give all I had and then it turn to nothing ..I couldn't
Like if being there for u cost me everything
Like if continually loving you was somewhat causing me to loose my mind , my sanity
Loving you caused me to feel inadequate, sadness consumed you and tormented your soul. And I couldn't help, useless.
But
Loving you made me stronger the moment I realized I had the ability to let go and love you from afar
( a.n- to my forever love)
