The New Normal

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I've finally picked up witting again
When reading this piece you can listen to either:
Yebba- where do you go OR Coldplay- fix you(acoustic)

Continually mourning
Through, life, love and death
My heart yearns, longs for relief
Shattered but I put it together, quickly, for all our sakes so it may beat again
The anticipation of another disastrous wave after fleeting moments of normalcy
.. my heart beats irregularly ..
Waiting, anticipating the devastation that's about to come
Bracing for impact, I can never get comfortable

Never a moment of solitude to recover, to heal.
Mourning day in, day out.
I can never get my emotions under wrap
Swallowed by my secrets and vulnerabilities,
I'm losing myself
This has become the new normal

Self loathing, blame and frustration
A glance in the mirror sparks tumultuous grief
Grief speaks to me for the first time and I ask for reassurance that it'll be okay,
She denies me the satisfaction
What I subtly looked forward to and caressed, and brought me joy will never come to fruition
I'm deserving of it, repentance too good for me, I dare not get the comfort 

I never get the satisfaction
I'm wandering , searching for peace, comfort
At crossroads to an unknown destination
Damaged but hopeful
The weight of the past tattooed on my heart and mind
I'll live never to forget, to forgive myself or let go
While keeping the promise to never relive that moment.

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⏰ Last updated: Apr 30, 2020 ⏰

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