Fear
Today I saw her for the first time again
And I became terrified
She instantly reminded me of you
All I ran away from , trying to forget , surpressing the emotions , disappointment and insufficency
I tried to avoid allowing my eyes to linger ... on the skin you preferred , legs that entranced you , smile that ensnared you, lips you've become addicted to
Tried not to compare, feature for feature, to think about it on such a shallow level
Tried not to ask myself why
Stop the emotions from slithering up my throat and wrapping themselves around it drawing tighter and tighter tormenting my soul rendering me powerless.
But I looked , I stared at her, she caught my eye. I think im still not over it , disbelief held me prisoner forcing me to watch her every move , and then thats what I realized, shes ur safe haven, shes just ..like.. you.. shes a facade, a smile , face of a goddess,
But as she stood there arms folded
Shifting feet, rocking in her insecurities, I became glad for the first time, that it didn't work out, that I didn't feel like I really wasnt enough because truth be told I was more than you needed and you knew that all along.
