the thoughts of essie bell

nov 10, 2016

it was never about being in a relationship with you.
it was about how your soul intertwined with mine.
about how we just got one another
about how we can enjoy one another's company even in awkward silence.
it was about the sight of one another that sparked so much electricity within our impulses.
it was about simply the touch of one another's flesh that made everything alright.
it was about the genuineness that was so unconscious we didn't expect recognition for it.
it was about the unconventional strength we put into battling
it was about the dominant force of reluctance to let go.
it was about the desperate need to fill that hole.
it was about love.
and I regret nothing.
I do not regret showing the world how much I loved you.
I want the world to know love is real and that it hurts sometimes but not on purpose.

I could never feel anything but a incredible amount of love for you.
no other love could have measured the depth of mine for you.
I would have bent my spine for you.
I would have put my life on the line if its......for you.
so it was never about a relationship....
it was about how much my love wanted for you and how you took me away from being apart of that.//e.b.