Endless pain?

Endless pain? Chapter 2

-Isabella's POV:-

Monday morning arrived too soon, since the incident on Saturday, my father continuously abused me. Each time creating new excuses. I knew my body was becoming weak. It hurt to move, it hurt to talk, and it even hurt to breathe.

It was now 6am and i had to prepare his breakfast. To be honest i had no energy, but i had no choice because i knew the consequences.

Consequences...

The word sent chills up me, i knew each time i said or did something that my father didn't approve of, he'd abuse me. Learning to keep my mouth shut became the norm however i couldn't control the movements of my body. This was my biggest weakness that caused me to receive more beatings. Each time id wince or cry in pain or even showed the pain, he'd begin the abuse. Id attempted to hide it so many times but the pain and hurt was to much for my body to bare; thus screams and tears unwillingly escaped me.

Consequences...

The reason my mother died. My father often reminded me that it was my birth that caused her to die. I don't know how and i don't know why. I craved the answers from when i understood that it was my fault. But each time I'd ask he'd hurt me or shout at me. I just wish that one day, he'd be able to answer all my questions and provide me the answers my mind and heart so crave.

Each day is like hell to me; Waking up feeling guilty, going through the day feeling guilty, going to sleep...feeling guilty. It is so hard to follow tasks at times, my mind just wonders back to my mother.

My mother...

The most beautiful women on earth with Green, soul piercing eyes and light brown hair that cascaded down her back, she had the most beautiful slim figure and heart shape face. She looked so beautiful and full of life. I just wish to have had more time with her. Sometimes i see her in my dreams, talking to me, but sometimes she would sit there staring deep into my eyes. I could never respond or talk, i just sit there staring into her eyes, sometimes tears slip and id feel a hand wipe them away...only to be woken up crying. Sometimes i just wish dreams were reality.

Comparing me to my mother, you could tell the strong resemblances. I had her green eyes, i had her light brown hair, her tiny button nose however i did share the same head shape as my father and my smile(when i did smile) resembled my father.

I think this could be why my father abused me, maybe he thought i reminded him of her, maybe he thought that because of me she died therefore he should make me feel the hurt and guilt.

Maybe, maybe and maybe....

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Looking at the time, i realise its half 6am, i jump from my position and rush into the bathroom.

Taking a quick shower, i dress into my undergarments, followed by my black skinny jeans and a long armed grey top with my grey vans. I let my hair dry naturally into the curls, whilst i rush downstairs preparing my father's breakfast.

The time is 7:12am. My father would be down at 7:45am. I begin making his cheese on toast, omelette and fresh orange juice.

By the time I'm done, it 7:36am. I begin cleaning up, since my father hates mess and if he finds the mess he'd start abusing me. I know he's awake, i can hear him going in and out of his bedroom. By the time i am done, i hear him walking down the stairs. I lay his breakfast out and wait for his arrival. Once he sits down, he begins eating, ushering me to get out. I leave the kitchen and go upstairs to grab my school stuff. Once I'm finished, i make my way downstairs, say goodbye and leave the house for school.

The time is 7:56am and school starts at half8. School isn't far so ill get there around 8:15am.

Rounding the corner to school, I'm engulfed in a bone crushing hug from my two best friends. Josh and Maggie.

These two angels have helped me so much in my life, despite knowing my family background. I trust these guys so much that without them, i know there is no chance of survival. They are both my rock and have been and always will be.

"Hey there, Joshy-poo and Maggie-poo!"

"Bells! Do you have to call us that?" they both whine together.

I just giggle and respond "Hey I'm in a jolly mood since I've seen your beautiful faces today"

"Awe that's so cute bells, i love you loads chica!" josh responds, followed by Maggie's complaining " Heyyy! I love her more!"

And there they go with the bickering, on who loves me more.

I just giggle and say "Guys! Calm down, you both love me loads equally! Now shall we get to school before we all get late?"

They both nod and link their arms in mine and pull me toward school.

"So how was your weekend bell? Oh and here is your prezzie!"

"Thanks josh and same old same old. I doubt that things will change" i feel a tear escape from my eye and from the corner of my eyes i see Maggie glaring at josh and then shouting "Now look what you've done! Bells everything will get better! I know that things will, oh and here is my prezzie for you, the one you're going to love out of the other prezzie's you received"

I had no choice but to laugh at that because round two of bickering begun for josh and Maggie.

I honestly do love these two.

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Once we reach homeroom, the bickering calms down and we settle in our seats. The class soon fills up and the class bitch-scrap that- schools bitch walks in. With her 6inch heels, skins tight, short clothes and layers of makeup, she sits down gushing about this new student.

"Oh my god! He is sooooo Hot! I bet i'll win him over before the week ends and before we go home, he'll be my proud boyfriend!" Vanessa squeals, her rat like squeal, and boasts about this new student. To be honest i feel for the new student, obviously he'll fall for the barbies trap. Poor kid!

I turn away and begin a conversation regarding the latest songs with my friends.

I feel a light tap on my shoulder and i jump. Turing around i come face-to-face with the most beautiful boy, with his tan skin, blue eyes and dark brown, short hair.

Before i can ask him what he wants, he asks...

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*cliffhanger* ;)

Continue reading to find out what this "beautiful boy" wants ;)

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So guys heres chapter 2 and i hope you enjoyed it. Like i said i will update regularly and hopefully keep you entertained.

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-CreativeAysha :)