Endless pain?

Endless pain? Chapter 5

Authors note:

Hey guys, so before you read this chapter, i would like to inform you that it is an emotional and intense chapter. Some may find it okay however for some, it may be a bit to emotional and intense. Therefore beforehand i wish to inform you that it may be a bit intense, however interesting with a twist.

Otherwise i hope you guys enjoy :)

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-Isabella's POV:-

After a night of crying, remembrance, pain and guilt, i feel myself dozing off.

The events of after school flashed through my eyes, and i felt my eyes jolt open.

It's been a few hours since this all happened but, today, was one of the Worst experiences I've EVER had with my father.

I know when my dad's drunk he hurts me more than when he is sober, but today, being sober, he caused me the most pain I've ever experienced.

*Flashback*

I walked through the door, i was nervous, but i had to take control and show no fear. As i walked in, My father was sitting there on the couch, crying? Yes crying.

I know we didn't see eye-to-eye but i still loved him. Yes i still loved him; he was still my father regardless.

As i approached him, he wiped away his tears and told me to sit.

"Isi?"

Oh.My.God! What is going on? He has never called me that since my mama died. That was his nickname for me.

"Yes, dada?" yes i called him dada when we were young. I remember how i couldn't say daddy properly so i called him dada, and each time i did, it made him smile like a Cheshire cat. That memory brought back tears. I was unsure of his reaction, since i haven't said it since i was 7 and now I'm 17.

But today instead of a huge grin, my father, my dada, started crying. It was horrible and painful. I didn't know what to do, i just wanted to hug him but at the same time i was scared. Why? Because i was scared he would flip and go back to normal.

"Baby, I'm so sorry for how I've treated you over the past few years. I'm so sorry i wasn't there for you when you needed me the most. Isi, I'm sorry, i couldn't fulfil the duties of a father! Baby, i don't know what to do or say, I've caused too much damage to you, for you to forgive me. Baby my time is limited, so for the time i have left, baby please let me fix up my mistakes and become a proper dad to you before i go"

My father broke down in tears in front of me.

My dada broke down in tears in front of me.

He was apologizing? No this can't be, i mean how?

His time is limited? What does he mean?

Before he goes? Again what does he mean?

What is happening? Wait am i asleep? Am i daydreaming?

"ISI! Baby are you listening?"

I come out of my trance and realise it was all real. But wait! What did he mean?

"Da-dada? Wh-what did y-you mean Wh-when-"

"Yes baby, my times coming, I'll soon be joining your m-"

"Don't! Don't say it!" i screamed. NO! He is not leaving me!

"Isi, ba-"

"NO! Dada you are NOT leaving me! I don't care what you've put me through, your still my dada! And you are not leaving me! D-"