Broken Restraint
I lay on my bed,
Holding up my book with both hands,
Soon I lose focus and stare at the wall,
Where there are many posters of bands.
My room door swings open loudly,
I turn around to see my dad,
He smiles at me and holds out his arms saying,
"Darling, daddy is back."
I run into his arms,
As the tears I try to hold back is released,
"Dad! How did you get back?
I thought you were deceased."
He doesn't answer my question,
Instead he just smiles at me,
"Darling, now that I'm back,
Why don't we grab something to eat?"
He takes me out,
And we spend time like how we used to,
Before the day ends he says,
"Darling, you have no idea how much I missed you."
I wake up with a start,
And wipe the tears from my face,
I jump out of my bed,
And look around the house for my dad.
My restraint starts wavering,
When I can't find him,
As fresh tears start to fall,
I realize it was only a dream.
Trying to keep myself from screaming,
I make my way to my room in a daze,
I notice the calendar on the wall,
Although my mind is in a haze.
January 6th,
My dad's birthday is today,
Did he send me that dream?
Because the memory is on replay.
It felt so real,
The time I spent with him in the dream,
But it wasn't real,
It was all in my head.
I make my way to the kitchen,
And pull open the second drawer,
Knowing seeing my dad is a mission,
I press the blade against my arm.
My restraint is broken.
A/N:
I got so many reads on this. It actually made me realize how many people are dealing with the problem of being suicidal. I really hope we all get through this alive :)
Please vote and comment! I'd really appreciate it.
