Our Little Secret - Zayn Malik AU

The Dance part 2

~Ariana's POV~

Zayn got up and spat the blood falling from his busted lip. He wiped his mouth with the back of his hand and sighed, "Okay, I know I deserved that, but Harry listen I wasn't thinking. I never meant to kiss, Ariana." Harry just shook his head and looked up at me. I could see the hurt in his eyes.

"Harry, I never meant to hurt you like this. I love you, letting Zayn kiss me was a huge mistake and I'm so sorry. Please forgive me, I love you and don't want to lose you." I reached for his hand, but he quickly pulled it away.

"You shouldv'e thought of that before you kissed him back." He shook his hands through his hair. "I'm such an idiot! I knew you liked her, Zayn, why couldn't you just be a man and tell me instead of kissing my fucking girlfriend! You're a fucking horrible friend, it's always what you want; always about you. You don't give a shit about anyone and when i finally have someone that I love you take her away from me because you can't deal with the fact that I have happiness and for once it's not about you!" I could tell he was fighting the urge to break down and start crying. I looked towards the dance floor and saw a few people start noticing what was happening; the other people were too drunk to care. I walked up to Harry and cupped his face.

"Harry, calm down. I know what we did was stupid and hurt you a lot, but I can't lose you. You're the best thing that has ever happened to me and I'm sorry that i cheated on you. Please, don't let me go; I need you." I kissed him softly, but he pulled away.

"Harry, don't blame Ariana. I'm the one who kissed her. I'm really sorry; I know I shouldv'e told you that I liked her, but I was scared to admit that I actually loved someone. I've loved her since I met her, but I was too much of a pussy to say anything. When you told me you liked her and you two started going out, I couldn't take it. I guess I thought the only way i could have her was if i break you two up. I'm sorry that we hurt you like this, but I'm not sorry for fighting for her because I love her just as much as you do and probably more." I started crying even harder, i couldn't deal with this right now. Harry walked outside; Zayn and I followed closely behind. Harry stopped in his tracks and looked at us over his shoulder.

"Well, Zayn I guess you can stop fighting. You win; you can have her." With that, he walked to his car and sped away. I fell to the floor and wrapped my head in my hands and cried hard. I can't believe I broke Harry's heart. I love him; I don't want to lose him. Zayn came over to me and rubbed my back.

"Don't worry, Ariana. It's going to be alright," he whispered. I wiped my eyes and got up from the floor.

"You don't fucking get it, Zayn. I just lost my boyfriend! I broke his heart by cheating on him with you and you're telling me everything will be alright," I rubbed my face and screamed," you made me lose one of the best things that has ever happened to me! I knew I shouldv'e stayed away from you. You don't even feel any guilt that you hurt your best friend, all you care about is your happiness. Harry was right, you're a selfish bastard. Go fuck yourself, Zayn! I'm done!"

I started to run as I hurt Zayn's faint screams for me. I ran all the way home. I couldn't deal with anyone right now. I slammed the door shut of my house and ran up to my room. I struggle to take my jewelry off and whipped it across the room. I held my head in my hands, slid against the door to sit on the floor and broke down crying. My phone started to ring, but I ignored it. I wasn't ready to talk to anyone and I knew that the person calling would be Zayn. (A/N gif on the side)

I stared at the floors for what felt like hours. I wasn't crying anymore, I was numb. 

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~Harry's POV~

I'm such a fucking idiot. I shouldv'e known that Ariana was cheating on me with Zayn. I saw the way they acted around each other, but I chose to ignore it- what the fuck was I thinking? I didn't want to break up with Ariana; it seemed as though my mind was doing all the talking and pushing my heart further away. I love Ariana, i don't want to lose her; even is she did cheat on my with my best friend. She makes me happy and I don't want to lose her because Zayn couldn't control himself and fucking seduced her. I know she kissed him back, but I need her and she needs me. But how can I trust her again? Fuck, this is so messed up. I can't take her back, she broke my heart. I want her to be mine, but it's too soon. I need time to forgive her. What if she isn't upset? What if she's glad that I let her be with Zayn? Or what if she goes with Zayn because she thinks that I don't love her anymore? I don't fucking care, I need her. I'm willing to forgive her because I'm in love with her and can't be without her.