Memories

Music and Art

    I don't exactly remember when I started liking music. I don't mean the type of songs today. The occasional love song will pop up and, i'll admit, I love a lots of hopeless love songs that i enjoy. But I don't mean songs about sex. I never fancied those. But I loved songs such as, Ghost- Halsey, or any song from Melanie Martinez. Though, they've grown more popular over the years, they still aren't exactly the most famous. I'm okay with that. I loved remixes of other songs. I would literally listen to any music if it was remixed. Even now as i write these words down on the computer, i am listening to music. It basically a escape for me. You know what i'm talking about when i say 'escape'.

   I have headphones in my pocket and my phone with me whenever i leave the house. Even at school, i still have earbuds in my pocket. They don't care as long as i don't randomly start listening to music in a lecture. I'm kind of an outcast at school. I'm different. But, people still "enjoy" my presence. I'm lucky I have friends who are like me. Some aren't at my school, but still. I have two friends who use this app/website and I am praying they won't read this. I have nothing to hide, I just don't want to be judged too hard. A little too late for that though...

I remember when i played instruments in school. Flute and Bass guitar. I've also learned how to make music using apps and such on the computer. I've recently learned piano from my friend. But, that's a story for another time. Maybe the next memory? Or the one after that? I'm not the best, though. Far from it actually. I honestly don't think any of my works- music, art, anything- are very good. I could do so much better but, alas, I don't exactly care. Music is my best friend. When all else fails and everything crumbles, I still have one thing that will keep me managed to be whole. Music. I didn't realize how much I listened to it until now. Too much. I apologize to my friends and family for ignoring them with  randomly humming or something. It's a bad habit. But, it's not the worst. 

   It's strange. Music can change emotions. Perspectives, perhaps. Who knows. You could listen to a song that it referred to as "sad", and you could possibly feel that emotion. From what? Music. Music could change any emotion. It can be understood through languages you may not even know. Instrumental music as an example, could be understood through any languages. How? I don't know. But I love it.

Music is still blasting in my ears.

   Art. Creativity. something I've tried to keep with me for years. I've done art. Though, it would be an awful excuse of art. My friends can draw so beautifully, and yet I can even draw the other gender. I've heard people complement my art before, but, for some reason I believe I will always hate it. I love art. I love the tranquility of just using paper or a canvas, or paint or pencil. Using the materials and your mind. It can create something so beautiful or meaningful. The fact that there are hundreds of different drawing styles fascinates me. Not exactly sure why, but I believe it will always be something I will be fascinated with.

   I remember that one of my favorite things to do is to draw with music. The two combined makes me finally at peace. It's almost hilarious. The thought that creativity could be shown more then one way, but if you say something about creativity, some people will automatically think of art or drawings. Art can be expressed through so many things. Writing, for example. The thought of it always made my laugh. How strange.

   I've been practicing drawing on a computer. It's very difficult. I've been practicing with my music as well. I feel that i'm getting a little better. It's not enough to satisfy me, but I don't think i'll ever find the end to that goal.

   I always loved making little drawings for art. Though, art can be a little challenging for me. I'm slightly colour blind. It's not too off, but It's challenging to be able to see red and orange differently. Or pink and purple. Or red and pink... okay, its a little off but still, Its ironic. I will keep doing it for as long as I can breathe. Whether It's drawing, painting, or simply making music. I will keep doing it. No matter how ironic it might be.

  I love art. Nothing can get me to stop loving it. I love music. Nothing can get me to stop loving it either. I love many things. I simply can't help it. You would say the same thing if you were me.

I turned off Wattpad and decided to draw.