Tears ~ e.g.d

FIVE

"Y/N where are you?! Come here now"

I walked down the stairs half asleep to see my angry mother standing at the end with her hands on her hips, oh fuck, I thought

"Why'd u get suspended?"

"For a stupid reason"

"Ok,  what was that reason?"

"Mom, I'm tired I don't want to deal with this right now can we talk tomorrow?"

"just tell me the reason Y/N"

"Some guy was bugging me so I gave him a piece of my mind and the principal didn't like that"

"Y/N didn't I tell you to stop giving people attitude?"

"I wasn't giving anyone attitude!"

"Don't yell at me! Your father knows your suspended, he expects u to call him, go do it now."

"mhm"

I walked back upstairs, I hated talking to my dad he always asked me if I wanted to move in with him and I always felt bad for saying no. The reason I'm not moving in with him is because he lives 3 towns away from my mom and I'm not about to switch high schools and leave my whole life behind me to go live with him.Instead of calling him I just texted him

-I assume you know I got suspended, I'm sorry I was giving people attitude it won't happen again I promise.

I told him I was giving people attitude so I don't have to argue with him too, shortly after I sent that text I got a reply.

-You said that last time Y/N, but okay.

I walked to my closet, put on a hoodie and sweatpants. I made my way downstairs grabbed my keys and told my mom that I was going out to eat with Y/B/N but truthfully I just needed to get out of the house.As I got into my car I blasted my music, I was on my way to Y/B/N's house. Once I got there, I wasn't planning to get out of the car because it was freezing, We lived in New Jersey and during winter it was cold as fuck. Therefore I took my phone out and called Y/B/N

"Want to go get pizza?"

"YES"

"Okay come to the driveway I'm here"

"Ok I'm on my way"            

While i was sitting there listening to Lana Del Rey I get a phone call from James

"Hey baby"

He knew I hated when people gave me little dog names, but he still did it which annoyed the shit out of me.

"Hey James"

"Wanna come over? My parents aren't home"

"No sorry, I'm hanging out with Y/B/N"

"So what? Just ditch her, Come here and we can fuck all night"

God I hated how he never took no for answer.

"James I can't, sorry'

"Fine, Bye"

Before i could say anything he hung up on me, I knew something was wrong but I didn't bother calling back as i saw Y/B/N walking out of the house. 

"Hey bitch"

"Hey, Where you wanna go?"

"Pizza"

"Ok, Get in"

"So what's been happening with you and James?"

"We fucked in the janitors closet"

She started laughing hysterically

"The janitors closet? Really Y/N?"

"Yea"

I said starting to laugh as well.

"Okay, Anything else???"

She loved hearing about me and James

"I think he's mad at me"

"Why?"

"He asked me to come over and fuck him right before you came out Of the house and I said no, you know how he doesn't take no for anwser."

"Y/N do u even love him anymore?"

"Of course I do Y/B/N"

I feel like I was lying to her, but even worse I feel like I'm lying to myself.