Love Hope In Batanes

THE VACATION

Flashback 1week ago @korea

Amber's pov

"Amber i meet you now to tell you that the management has decided. you will be having your own solo album again!." -my Manager enthusiastically announced

"Really? Thank you for your trust" i said with no emotions

"And guess what ? You can write your own songs for this ! Isn't it great !? You work so hard for this right ?"

" Yes. So can i take a vacation leave?" I directed to the point

And my manager gave me a puzzled look.

" Leave .. amf.. to have an i-inspiration for writing my songs.." i stuttered

"Ofcourse you may" he answered

"Thank you oppa"

"Its ok. You should take a break...." he started

"I'm sorry amber" He finally said after a long pause.

I gave him my own puzzled look this time.

"Its because of HER right?" he said that snapped me. I can feel my breath starts to get heavy...

" you know you can tell me what you feel. I'm like your second father here."

I stayed silent

" i know everything Am. Even if you don't say a word. " he continued

With that .. a tear fell down. And another one. Then i realized I'm starting to sob.

My manager encolosed me in his arms. I hugged him back and cry like a child.

i finally spoke:
" Its my fault oppa! I thought she feels the same.. stupid heart ! I shouldn't let my self fall ! I should have known that those were just for fans ! I shoudnt take it all seriously ! Those were just FAN-SERVED !" i broke down

He starts to pat my back but still don't want to let go. Like He wants me to continue and let it all out.

"I shouldn't forget that we are in this industry!...

I shouldn't forget that we are just making our fans happy

I shouldn't forget that WE ARE BOTH FEMALES

and i shouldn't forget that she is for a 'HIM' not for another 'HER'."

With that, i broke down and i cannot stop crying.
I don't care what i look like now or if I look stupid. Because i really feel that way.

"So what are your plans now" manager suddenly asks.

"I want to forget all the pain oppa. I want to be away from this world where nobody knows me as a celebrity. I want to be away from the lime light and everyone that knows me. "

I don't want their pity.

Manager pulled out from the hug and search something on his laptop.

"Here, i suggest you go here"

He pointed a picture in his laptop

"Batanes?" I ask confused

"Yup! Never heard ?"

"Amf ... familiar.. but.. why there?"

" You said you want to go somewhere where people don't know about you? "

"Yeahhh??"

"Exactly! I don't think that someone knows you there. besides, its barely no electricity there."

"Whaaat?!!" Oh no.. i really don't get it

"Oh don't get me wrong. Its actually a rising tourist destination. Ofcourse all you need is in the city.. but i have a rest house there in a small town. They just lI've a normal life there. They are hospitable. Don't worry, they can understand and speak english even if it is not their mother tongue."

Im still confused if i can live there

" I just have a feeling that you can find your HOPE there "

I always trust him and i think its not a bad idea.

"Ok ill go there"

"Good so ill be the one to send you there."

With that i bid good bye.

"Thank you oppa "

"Am! Bye the way. I only give you one month to stay there. You have to be back here for your album". He reminded

'A month to fix my self should be enough'

I thought to my self as i decided to leave.