Love Hope In Batanes

THE SECOND FAMILY

~back to present~

Amber's pov

Tiktilaok !!!

The roaster said.

Haha. This is way better than an alarm clock!

I decided to wash up and went to the bakery few blocks from the rest house.

"Good morning manong isko!"

"Good morning seph!"

"Twenty pesos of pandesal po"

"Here!"

"Salamat po"

"Walang anuman!"

I take a walk and went to my neighbor and share the bread that i brought to the family. They prepared coffee and scramble eggs. We ate and the youngest daughter of the family, anna, spoke.

"Kuya seph! You saw the beautiful girl ?"

"Who? Every girl in this town is beautiful"

They laugh

"Haha seph ang galing mong mambola" the mother said

"Amf.. what's that?"

They laugh again.

Then anna speak again

"Kuya, thats a visitor ! She's not from here you know...we saw her yesterday at the city. she's a.... a... like this..."

Then she started walking a runway walk and pose .

We laugh again

"Ahhhh.... a model !."

"Yah yah ! " Then she clapped

Im really enjoying my stay here. People are nice they're like my family here. And they treat me well not because I'm an idol but because I'm a friend. They already know that I'm a girl but the little kids here are still calling me kuya. I also have a nick name as 'Seph' from 'joSEPHine' because i want to forget amber for a moment.

I went back in the rest house, to prepare and get my phone. I rode a trycicle and jeepney to get to the city. I just go here to buy some toiletries and my other necessities and also to charge my phone and my other gadgets. I have to do this here since the electricity in our town is unstable and there is no coverage area. I texted my manager to tell him I'm ok for he is the only one who knows where iam. The others only know that i am out of the country to write my songs.

he replied asking me to take a skype call which i did

"hey amber sup?" he greteed

"I'm good, I'm working on my first song for the album"

"good to hear that. by the way, you look different ..."

"what do you mean?"

"you look manlier, and you are so tan! i almost didn't recognize you! you can even walk freely in korea without a disguise !" he said and laugh

i don't blame him though, i dyed my hair back to black but there were copper strands because of over exposure to sun, i even get toner because of what i do in the island.

"you should update your fans! they are in chaos now!" he said

"they missed me that much? ahaha"

"don't be sarcastic ! just check it for yourself , gotta go now bye and keep safe there!" with that, he ended the call

I don't want to open my social media accounts but i have the urge to do it now.

Like what i expected, my fans misses me. They are giving sweet messages and wish that i go back soon.

some are giving absurd expeculations about my sudden 'vacation'. like, i might had another injury, i left my group and f(x) will be disbanded, some even say I am pregnant!
and the worst....
fans are having a debate on  who is the father ! they even fight. oh gosh!

krisber vs. henber vs. keyber vs. other exober vs. Anyber

like seriously, how can i have this so many ships?! and me? pregnant? what the heck?

some also think i left because of a certain issue, which is true by the way.

i post a tweet saying I'm having a blast on my vacation. i attached some pics of me doing things on the island but not giving too much info of where i am.

I'm so happy that i decided to scroll down and see some updates in korea... i missed my group so much and my friends there as well.

I'm so into reading , laughing a little in some post, that i totally forgot why i don't like to open any of my social media accounts in the first place.

Then i saw a post.

A picture that turn my wide smile into a frown.

Suddenly my eyes became watery...

I'm so messed up.

I can't help but to remember the days...

When i thought everything i wanted was still on me.

I close my eyes for a moment as i cant help but to remember ....