Love Hope In Batanes

Shattered Krystal

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"When you were lost, I'm so afraid. I came to a realization... I can't loose you Amber. I love you. I cant deny it anymore. I love you! We can start over Amber... Please... Can you forgive me?"

Krystal's POV

"I can't forgive you Krys" I was taken aback with what she said

"But Why?"

She cupped my cheeks as tears continue to flow from my eyes.

"Because I never hated you. I never got mad at you. I never ever got angry with you." she said calmly

I smiled, still with teary eyes.

It was like a thorn was lifted off of my chest when she said that.

Until she continued:

"I must be the one to tell you I'm sorry"

My chest began to throb again. I would like to stop her from saying anything. But nothing comes out of my mouth.

"I'm sorry but I cannot return your feelings anymore...."

"Stop!" I cut her off. I know she will just keep on saying sweet nothings as a consolation. I don't like her to sugar coat her statements. I want her to be true to me. And not babysit with my feelings!

"Its because of her right? Your Hope?"

"Krys..."

"You don't have to answer. I knew it." I said then grab my shirt then got dressed. She didn't even protest when I walked out, and slam the door shut. That's when I burst out crying. Holding my mouth while my eyes still closed. I leaned on the door.

When I thought I had enough pain tonight, I slowly open my eyes and that's when I notice the presence of someone.

Well... I think, my rough day is just getting started when I saw who is standing just few steps beside the door.

It was none other than a dumbfounded ...

"Kai." I said as I looked at him, based on his facial expression, I am certain that he heard everything from the start.

I can tell he is hurt. Or maybe mad? Or maybe, furious. But my pain is so great for me to attend to his so without any other words spoken, I ran. I left him. My mind can't think straight I just want to go home now....

To my Unnies.

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I was crying the whole taxi ride towards Luna unnie's apartment. I didn't even bother to call her that I will come. I am so busy with my thoughts. My heart is aching, so is my head. But to tell you honestly, I want more head ache so I can forget the pain in my chest.

Why I even drink in the first place? Well, I just saw Eliz's face on the countdown again. Now she's not just number 6, but number 2 on the list. Its not that I envy her or anything. I don't even care about that friggin list! The fact that I see her face is enough for me to drink.

Why again? Because after the first time I heard the name of this girl, I made a research about her. They thought that Amber just mistaken her as Hope. But according to my research, her full name is Eliza Hope Gonzales. And Eliz is just her screen name. Which made me drop my phone at that time.

I also found out that she had a photoshoot in Batanes at exact time frame where Amber had her vacation.   So there is a great possibility that they've seen each other. I asked Jessica unnie once if she knew this Hope since she was with Amber when she came back, but she said she didn't know that name. But when I asked her about the name Eliz, she was also shocked when she saw her picture on the list last year. She confirmed that she already saw this girl before, and what's more surprising is that she told me that she was also missing at the time of the storm. Yes. Just like Amber. What a coincidence right?

I should have just shrug it off. She doesn't have to know. I thought time would erase all those memories of her, specially that she can't see her. But no!  Not when she dream of her almost every night. Yes she do. How would I know? I heard her mumbling her name like it was her she's with and not me. Can you imagine my feelings at those moments?

"Krystal, what's the matter?" Luna Unnie, asked me as soon as she saw me.

"Unnie..."

She let me in. I told her about my talk with Amber up to my encounter with Kai.

"Krys, I think, we need our umma here."

"No.no.! She will just nag at me like she usually do. She's still mad at me."

"Krys, she's not mad. She just doesn't like what you were doing to yourself and to Amber. She's just concern. Just like me."

I agreed. In no time, Victoria unnie came. She immediately hugged me. And that's when I regret all the disrespects I gave her. In times like this, they are still there to support me despite of what I did to her.

"What are you planning to do now?" She asked after all of her lectures.

"I want to do the right thing from now on unnie"