It was 3am, I had to talk to Erin, quickly I grabbed my phone and began to text her.
A: Hey Erin, you awake? x
E: Hello, yes I'm awake and no idk if there's any homework due in tomorrow! 😂😂x
A: No it's not about that, I want to talk you about stuff with right now x
E: yeah, anything specific? x
A: Emotions, preferably x
E: my emotions have been all over the place recently, it's like going on a scary ride for the first time ever. Sometimes you need to just accept it, no matter what's happening around you x
A: Did you have to get that deep? X
E: Just tell me what you were going to say! X
A: I feel really guilty and just really down because of what happened! I feel like such a horrible person, I don't deserve you. You deserve so much more than me, I'm a waste of space and you deserve someone that will always love you and never let you down. X
A: I just feel like I can't be the one that you deserve more than anything else.. x
E: Andy, what are you saying? X
E: Does this mean you are breaking up with me then, 3am just making me heartbroken in the middle of the night?
Fuck. I looked at my alarm clock realising it's nearly 3:20am, I love Erin more than anything in this world. I can't let her go but it seems like the only correct thing to do.
"If you love me let me go,
If you love me let me go"
Tears were slowly falling from my cheeks as I began to reply.
A: Erin, I love you more than words can say, I just don't feel like I'm the right guy for you. I would happily stay with you but I feel like I'm a horrible person that has no purpose and can only ruin people's life. X
Nothing.
A: You mean everything to me but I feel like I'm nothing to anyone, even you x
E: I have something to say to you x
YOU ARE READING
Everything To Me.
RomanceErin has just approached 2nd term in high school, Erin was the type that would try to blend in rather than stand out. One day, she met a boy, he was everything she wanted and more!
