I Love Him - Jariana

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I should watch my surroundings when writing. Justin could've sat next to me, without me knowing, and read my journal over my shoulder. That's why I'm sitting in the back of the jet, ignoring everything someone says or does. Ryan assumed I was writing songs as well as the rest, that's why they didn't bother me.

Enough of them, let's focus on my love life. Jai moved on to some girl from his home town, and I'm happy for him. I didn't cheat on him though, Nate and I were and are just friends. Justin, oh my god, Justin. He's been laughing at the most random things, and when he smiled it makes me smile. When Selena laughs, it makes me stop laughing because Justin starts laughing even more. Laughter is happiness; not right now it isn't. My laughter is evil laughter as I imagine doing mean things to Selena that I'm not going to say because we're good friends. That's why I didn't try anything on Justin or give her the cold shoulder. Just looking at Justin makes my heart race. When he looks at me my heart skips a beat, and when he smiles... I fall in love all over again.

"Join us, Ariana!" Selena exclaimed, making me shut my journal quickly. Good thing she was still feet away, and wasn't able to read what I was writing. Sliding my journal in my suitcase where my lingerie was, I walked up to them.

The only seat that was open was next to Justin, so I took the seat. "Can I read one of your songs?" Selena asked, which made me start shaking my head rapidly.

"Why?"

"Privacy."

"Is it about Jai?" Scooter blurted.

"No. It's just private." I muttered, Ryan sitting on the opposite side of me, where Justin wasn't sitting.

"Where'd the wild and crazy Ariana go from when you first came here. After the Nathan and Jai stuff, you were still you. What happened?" Ryan asked, everyone getting quiet as they stared at me.

"I don't know. I'm not nineteen anymore, I guess turning twenty made me feel like I should me more mature." I shrugged, everyone pointing at Justin who had moved to the floor of the plane, typing on his phone and singing the theme song of Handy Manny to himself.

"I have little siblings!" he defends. "Ari, so what you're twenty? Scooter's thirty two and still acts like a child."

Sipping it my drink, Justin sat back up next to me. "Turn on music, that theme song is stuck in my head." Justin said, making Alfredo laugh.

"Isn't Handy Manny and Bob The Builder the same person?" I blurted, Ryan being the first to laugh. "No, I'm serious. They are like the same people."

"I agree." Justin grabbed my wrist, holding our arms up making our point very clear.

"Whatever, I need to hang with someone my age." Scooter got up, and sat by Pattie. We all engaged in a conversation about Selena and Justin's tour. When they brought mine up, I shrugged. "Her tour starts soon. Don't bug."

When that conversation was over, I got a chance to sneak away, and go bother Fred, the pilot. "Hey Ariana. Long time no see!" he smiled, as I put on the headphones so I could talk.

"Yeah, I haven't been traveling much." she grabbed the other steering stick, and begged, "Come on. You let me do it last time."

"That's because it was only us and Scooter. There is two other celebrities on this jet."

"Okay! Fine. I'll bother you later." chuckling, I walked out, Scooter giving me my phone. "Who called?"

"Nathan, then Justin answered and thought he was Jai. I think you might want to clear some stuff up." Scooter said, Justin giving me puppy eyes, wanting me to forgive him. I gave in instantly, giving him a small smile.

AG: Nate, that was Justin (Bieber) that answered the phone.

NS: idc anymore. i'm sorry i bothered you.

AG: whatever. be a prick.

I dropped my phone in my dufflebag, and went in my suitcase and grabbed my journal. I continued on the page I left off.

Nathan called. I ended up calling him a prick, which I didn't mean. It only came out because I was a little mad at Justin for answering my phone. But those puppy eyes and his plump lips made me give in and forgive him.

Before all that happened, Ryan was questioning me about how i've changed from crazy and wild to quiet and distant. I gave him the excuse of turning twenty made me feel as if I should act more mature, and they all believed it. What made my heart race and a smile appear is that Justin called me 'Ari' instead of 'Ariana'. I couldn't contain my happiness, and I think someone noticed but I'm not sure who.

Footsteps. I hear them. Ugh, why can't I write in peace?!

Shutting my journal, I looked up to meet eyes with Justin. "Did I do something wrong? Selena told me to answer it because she thought it was your grandad." Justin said.

"It's okay." I lied, my mixed emotions getting the best of me. I was mad, sad, and confused. Huffing hard, I got up, and walked up to the front, and Fred groaning sarcastically, until he noticed my clenched jaw.

"What's wrong Ari?"

"I don't want to invovle you. I just need some time away from them and some quiet." I answered, pulling out my headphones, and Fred's phone that was in his pocket. He didn't mind, but as soon as I turned on Pandora, All That Matters came on.

Sighing, I also smiled.

No matter how mad Justin messes up, I always forgive him. He thinks I'm mad at him now because I just walked away on him, but I'll tell him a lie later on. Lies on top of lies lead into a bigger lie, but I'd rather lie than tell him how I truly feel. It'll be embarrassing, considering he has a girlfriend.

I'm going to have to get over him at one point, but it'll be impossible considering I'm on tour with him. Yeah, and there goes a disadvantage to being on this tour. Not being able to get over him. The advantage is getting closer to him which is happening very slowly.

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Dedicated to @sandralovesbieber for making me that perfect cover for my story!! <3