Falling

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Cara's POV

"What the hell is this Cara?" Karlie yelled at me holding a bag of the white powdered substance.

"That's not mine" it was the first thing that came to my mind, I was shocked that she had gone through my stuff, but most of all I was embarrassed.

"Cara don't fuck with me" She said, she was angry as I could tell. Karlie then sighted in frustration and took a seat next to me. "I thought you had stopped" she said a bit calmer now, I was so afraid to look at her in the eyes. I knew what I had promised.

"I was just so mad and I-I didn't know what to do" I try to  justify my actions, I was still unable to see her, because I was scared that if I did, I was going to start crying. "I'm sorry"

"You had stopped, you told me you wouldn't do it again" Karlie said, she was a bit calmer now, but still disappointed. At this point I has started crying, I couldn't hold it back.

"Hey, don't worry" Karlie said, wrapping her arms around me and bringing me close to her, I had missed her, like I see her everyday, but being with her. "We can fight through this, just like we always do okay" she said with a smile, trying to calm me down.

"Yeah, I know" the only words that could leave my mouth. I pulled away, I needed to explain why I had gone back to my old habits.

"I-I was scared honestly" tears started to form in my eyes and it wasn't long until I started fully crying.

"Shhh, you don't have to explain" Karlie tried to say, but I cut her off telling her that I needed it. For me.

"After my sister came to visit us, all the memories came back, every promise, every plan, every dream I had. It just made me feel so vulnerable that even after all the years she had power over me" I started explaining, my voice cracking every now and then. Karlie didn't say anything and I was glad she didn't.

"I needed something to take my mind out of it, so I ran to the last place I wanted too, but I guess my mind still knew that was the only place that could make me happy" I cleaned my eyes, trying to stop the tears from falling, but I knew it was useless.

"Liam said hello when I got there and it made me feel welcomed. Like family" Karlie wasn't happy at the sound of Liam being family, she didn't say anything though. I guess she still knew he had picked the pieces when I needed them to be put back together.

"So, I did. I took it and it did made me feel better. I promised myself it was going to be the only day I was going to use it and I kept the promise" I smiled at the thought of myself not braking my promise. I knew it was wrong, but how can something that can make you feel so good be bad.

"I have been selling it, trying to make some extra cash for us. I know it's useless because we have money, but I was just so lost that I couldn't come back" I finished, the tears had stop and I immediately felt better getting everything of my chest.

Karlie just stares at me, not saying a word. I knew she wanted to help me, but I guess she didn't know how to. Don't worry Cara, you have overcome this once you can do it again.

"I'm sorry" Karlie said just above a whisper. "I'm sorry I wasn't there when you needed me the most" I just hugged her, I knew she meant it, she had always meant it. The truth is that we both needed each other.

I smiled and it made me realized that even though I had broken into a million pieces, there was always that someone that I could trust to pick them up and put them back together. I had Karlie, who loved me no matter what.
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