The Pillar Of Nebuwah

A walk down the Tunnel

"My legs ache." Silvia groaned , halting. She bent down and pressed her ankle slowly, grunting in the proces

"I think it's best if we call it a day and take a break." Dan said standing beside Silvia. He bent down and took hold of Silvia's foot and examined her swollen ankle.

"But we have to move on ! We need to find the prophecy before Frostina does or else Aramanda will perish under her rule." I reasoned.

"Esther , for once , stop thinking about yourself and think about others for once !" Dan shouted at me which caught me off guard.

In my rage of anger, I too raised my voice."Well now I'm selfish ! For thinking about my people over my own security! "

"Don't you see that this is taking a toll on Silvia ?"

"Oh so now it's Silvia ! What is wrong with you ? I thought you would never leave my side ? Wasn't that your so called goddamned  promise ?" I shot back

"Stop it both of you !" Christopher came in between us. His blue eyes looked at me with confusion and then at Dan with a look that told him to keep his lips sealed.

Jason put one of his hands on my shoulder to tell me calm down. I looked up at him and he shook his head slightly to tell me that it wasn't helping. At this point I was on the verge of tears , I hadn't told my brothers about Dan and I and I'm pretty sure they still don't have any clue on what's going on.

"We rest for a while here." Christopher said. He had confusion written all over his face even though he just made a statement.

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After eating a light meal and choosing a side of the tunnel to take a short nap , I sat up trying to forget Dan's statement on how selfish I was being. I had to admit I was shaken by his words and broken by their meaning.

Never had I ever thought that his lips would ever move to insult me becausr those were the very lips that assured me of his company. Always and Forever.

"Not sleepy ?" Jason asked , as he sat up right next to me. I just shook my head in response .

"Look , I know Daniel's words hurt you. I may not be an expert at body language but I understand that he was very close to you and vice versa but I feel bad to see you being hard pressed with so many things." He said , in a very genuine tone.

"It's just that Dan and I share so many memories that to believe that he would say such things just makes things unbelievable to a great extent. The first memory I have is of him promising to stay by my side always and forever. It just hurts to know that he's forgotten it. I don't know if you can every understand but somehow his distance from me physically hurts. It really does hurt." I explained , taking out a lot of things that I had bottled up. Jason nodded for me to continue and I gratefully did because I had bottle this up for months and this was good to get out.

"I mean he's close to Silvia now , and before her he was close to me. Very close. I can't recollect one instance where we fought a war of tounges like this. It just hurts too much. It physically hurts , it's like someone is stabbing me with a sword I cannot counter. I can't even explain the pain that's within me. Sometimes I just want to forget about all of this but I can't because every time I look back I his face." I explained going deep into my feelings.

"You are strong you know ? I am sure you'll get past this. If you ever need to talk , I'll be there." Jason said with a reassuring smile spreading his plump red lips.

I lay down, on the little blanket that I had brought with me. My eyes were slightly open to observe the others. My eyes fell on Jenifer who slept peacefully but her eyebrows were slightly furrowed.