But that's how Love is.

Will she ever be Mine?? (2)

Viren's View

I had convinced Amelia to accompany me for the night because obviously Anika wouldn't be very happy at my sight once she gets up.

Amelia went to sleep in the other room while I was left with some time to ponder on all that happened today. It was not less than a miracle for me, to look at my Anika, to carry her, to adore her sleepy face, to feel her warmth once again after almost a year.

Today was the best day of my existence of the last one year. But there were mixed emotions, I was not the one to deserve pure happiness, specifically after the monster I had been to Anika.

To be clear, there was a great confusion in my mind, a very big dilemma, ofcourse about Anika.

Should I leave her alone to heal on her own? Or should I re-enter her life and start convincing her?

"Convincing?? Have you really lost it?" , my inner self taunted me.

People can be convinced to forgive your mistakes but not your sins which you had knowingly done to hurt someone, and that someone who has not been less than an Angel to you. Someone who healed you, brought you out of so much darkess, someone who was ready to sacrifise anything and everything for your sake, even her own self?

You hurt such a person, to be honest, you kill her from within. After all this you expect her to forgive you at once, when you go in front of her.
Things are not as easy as you think. Man, you got to work hard!!

"This is going to be hard." I told myself.
I was all set to enter into her life and make it a blessing with all that I had. That was the least I could do for her compared to all that she'd done for me. I was firm in my decision.
I started planning mentally on how things are going to turn out from tomorrow.

Will God be on my side?
Will destiny stop playing it's dirty games now?
Will I be able to make my Anika smile?

I din't know the answers to any of these questions, none of these were in my control.
But what I knew was that I love my Anika endlessly and this fact is enough for me to face the time to come, the hardships I'd face from tomorrow.
She, her name was alone enough for me to survive the darkest days of my life. Tomorrow is nothing in comparison to it.

All of my thoughts were interrupted with whispering yet painful screams of Anika. I could make out the hurt she was feeling through her voice. I was shocked to witness so many cracks in her voice.

"She was hurt beyond repair." I thought to myself as I rushed out to find Amelia but ended finding a letter saying..

Viren,

I'm sorry, but the two of you need some alone time. Take care of her and take full advantage of this situation. My good wishes are with you. :p

If there is anything urgent, phone call.
I'll be available.

Amelia :)

I couldn't move. There was fear all inside me. Did this mean I have to face Anika like this? Without any prior planning,
What would be her reaction?
How will I face her eyes which have only hatred for me?

There was so much running in my mind, but I had no time to waste. I quickly messaged Amelia about the situation and rushed to Anika's room.

I waited and waited, then finally peeped inside. I was shocked at the sight? I rubbed my eyes to re-check if this was my Anika.

I had no more time to waste and ran into the room and took her in my lap.
But what followed, I din't expect, not even in my dreams.