Breaking Desires

Chapter Two

Sorry, that this chapter is shorter. The next one will be longer :) Thanks for reading!

Noelle Armstrong

As soon as I get home I head straight for my room trying to hold back the tears, but it was no use. My eyes brimmed with tears and my lip started to quiver. I plop onto my queen size bed, burying my face into the pillows, and started to cry uncontrollably.

The thrashing sobs and the hot burning tears that rolled down my cheeks continually had me gulping for air.

 I hate him! I’ve never thought I could loathe someone so much in my life, but there he was! Parker Auclaire, clear as day.

 I lay there for what seems like hours, but when I look over at my digital clock on my nightstand I realize I’ve only been here for half an hour. Annoyed, I roll over onto my side.

“Honey?” I hear my gram call out.

 I sigh and managed to somehow control my tears and pretend that everything is okay. My gram walks through the doorway with a concerning look on her face.

Her pale wrinkly skin looked discared. No matter how much makeup she used you could still see the wrinkled lines that surrounded her face.

Her golden framed glasses were placed at the end of her nose revealing her sunken emerald eyes that have grown dull.

Her back was stooped over giving her a hunch on the top of her back, putting all her weight onto her sliver cane, her silver lining hair was thrown back into a bun, her smile was lopsided revealing her false teeth and cracked lips.

 “I’m fine, gram.”

 She smiled. “Okay honey. I thought you looked upset.”

“No, I’m okay.” I lied.

 Bless her heart.

My gram was the best. After my parents died in a car accident two years ago, my gram stepped up to the plate and claimed me as her own. She took care of me when no one else was going to. If it wasn’t for my gram I probably would have been shipped out to foster home after foster home. I don’t know how I could ever repay her.

 “Alright, honey. There is some cookies that I baked for you and your little friend in the kitchen,” My gram replies smiling, slowing turning around to head out the door. 

My gram really is the best-

 Wait, did she say my friend?

 “Wait, gram!” I shout, loud enough for her to hear me.

 Her head shook from me probably frightening her.

 “Yes, dear?” She softly says.

 “What ‘friend’ are you referring to? I didn’t invite anyone over?”

 “Oh, that lovely young gentleman you used to be smitten to when you were both younglings. I think his name is Parker.’

 I jolt up and am on my feet in total shock. My eyes about pop out of my head, my body starts to trembling, and my fingers start to get sweaty.

 I gulp.

 Parker Auclaire is in my house?! Over my dead body!!!

 "WHAT!?!” I shriek, not caring how loud I am. How could my gram let Parker into MY house? Just knowing that we’re breathing the same air is too much for me, let alone him being in my house! After all the heartache and tears I’ve poured out to my gram she lets my arch nemeses into my house.

 “WHAT IS HE doing here?!”

 “He knocked on the door about twenty minutes ago. He said he wanted to talk to you, so I invited him in for some cookies.” My gram smiles genuinely. I could feel my face boiling with anger.

 My gram gives me a look to chill out, but I just can’t not with the fact that I know Parker is downstairs probably thinking of new ways to torture me.

 Like today when Parker kissed me.

 He knew that I still had feelings for him and he used it against me. Now Aubrey and everyone else of her little petty army of skanks are out to get me. I mean it’s not my fault that he kissed me!!

 To be honest I haven’t been able to stop thinking about our kiss.

 The way his lips crashed onto mine, I felt a fire ignite.  At first the kiss was gentle, like he was afraid he was going to hurt me, I felt his tongue run across my bottom lip. My fingers intertwined with his dirty blond hair pulling him closer into me. I placed my hand on the side of his cheek, slowly urging his lips harder against mine. He chuckled in between our kisses; it was almost as if he was testing my limits.

 I wanted more and he knew it.

 Everything about that moment was perfect, until Aubrey ruined everything. I hated that girl almost as much as I hated him.

 I sighed. I loathed myself for giving in and kissing him back.

 “Now, now, dear.” My grandma coos continuing on with her sentence, “I think it will be good for you and Parker to hang out again like when you two were little. You two just had the best of times.”

 I shake my head, “gram you know what he did to me. He shattered my heart into a million little pieces.”

 “I know, but you need to learn and forget.”

 How can I just “forget” what he did to me! We were best friends until he had to ruin EVERYTHING!!!! I can’t and will not ever forgive or forget what happened that night.

 I shudder just thinking about what happened that night.

 “Okay gram. I’ll try my best.” I lie giving her a fake smile.

 “That’s my girl.” Gram replies, bringing me into a big hug. “Go on now, Noey. And be nice,” she warns.

 I smile. As if.

 But I reply back with, “Anything for you gram,” as I walk out of my room and into the kitchen, coming face to face with the golden boy himself.