These entries are a glimpse of my personal journey and struggle with Bipolar disorder and depression.
These entries may cause triggers so please be careful when you read.
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Looking back on this past week some things are starting to seem clearer, I'm not in a daze anymore. But I do feel my anxiety at full force when I remember that night.
My anxiety had gotten the best of me that night and didn't allow me to open my car door and work. Which lead to me panicking and then cutting. What I like to call an episode.
The next day, just thinking of going to work just made my anxiety start up a bit and I would freak out.
This happened all week.
The worst part is trying to explain to my husband why exactly I couldn't work because I honestly don't know why.
Just thinking about it makes me feel sick. This fear kicked in that night and it's still around me like a thin blanket waiting to suffocate me when it gets its chance.
It's day 4 and I'm praying that day 5 doesn't bring on my anxiety because then an episode won't be far behind.
