life's rain // bruno mars

chapter twenty-six

chapter twenty-six

Part five

We didn't talk at all. Like he wanted, it was just us, and nothing else. I felt everything you were supposed to feel. The way he slowly took off the stupid lingerie I was wearing, but along with that he also pulled away the means of how I was barricading myself against the world and living in my cage, holding on to my grief. 

Bruno kissed me softly, up and down my skin. He moved on top of me so carefully, so slowly.

Unlike Ray.

Unlike Ray.

Unlike Ray.

I knew I was being unfaithful, and had a sudden horrific thought that I had become just like him, because the amount of other girls he slept with while being with me is significant. But when I watched Bruno watching me, with his soft pants, I knew he saw a part of me that I hadn't even known was there. The warrior part, the strong part. The part I now hung on to more than ever before.

I was nothing like Ray.

I was nothing like my mom.

I was my own person, and I'm so sorry for abusing you.