Hate And Love •M.A.D Fanfic•

Chapter 8

I've never felt this bad in my life. why did I let Dan make me think he loved me. we know nothing about each other.

"Dani!" Aiden shouts

"What?" I cry, what was he doing here?

I didn't want to talk to anyone not now not ever! if I can't be with dan there is not point me being alive !!

"I-I" he says

"What do you want?" I hiss

"It's Dan" he sighed "he tried to kill himself."

"Omfg! why?!" I said, a outburst of emotions flow through my body. but the one that gets me most is the guilt.

"He knew he screwed everything up..." I stopped Aiden

"Is he ok?" I asked, what If he is dead? I-I can't think straight..

"He's good but he's in hospital" he faintly smiled

"That good" I sighed.

"He loves you ya know" he said

"Really? Your not just saying that to make me feel better?" I asked

"No! just cos he will never get over Alexis doesn't mean he don't love you" I bit down on my lip for a minute.

"Can you just take me to the hospital" I said

"Sure" he smiled

"*"

Once we had got to the hospital it didnt take long for us to find Dan.

"Hey" he smiled as I walked in

"Hi" I said

"Good to see you" he smiled

"I guess, why did you try and take your life, Dan, it's stupid."

"I thought if I couldn't be with you I could be with Alexis" he weakly smiled

"If you had done it I wouldn't have been able to cope today" I smiled

"Why not?" he asked

"I would want someone who loves me with me on my birthday" I giggled

"It's your birthday?" he asked

"Yeah" I said

"I didn't get you anything" he frowned

"I don't need anything else though" I smiled "I've got you"

"But..." he said

"No buts" I giggled

"What's this?" he asked nodding towards my arm, I quickly pulled my sleeve down

"It's nothing" I said.

"What happened?" he asked

"I just burnt myself" I said

"Ok" he smiled "can you get Aiden an Michael here for me?"

"Ugh sure" I agreed, I walked out of the room and called them both over.

"Yeh bro?" Michael asked

"Can you leave Dani?" dan asked, I nodded and walked of the room. I heard muttering but I couldn't make out anything they were saying.

"*"

A few days passed, Dan was living with me. we weren't sleeping together or anything, we weren't even boyfriend or girlfriend. just real close friends.

I always wanted someone to be that special to me. make me feel special. He made me feel special alright.

"Dani!" he yelled "dinners ready!"

I ran downstairs to see him sitting on the sofa watching a film while stuffing his face with food. I grabbed my plate and joined him.

"I was wondering if you wanted to do something together" he smiled

"Ugh, sure I guess. like what?" I asked him

"Maybe, go watch a movie..." he said listing different things we could do.

"I don't mind" I smiled

"Ok" he said

I finished Of my dinner and went back upstairs. I played on my ps3 for a bit then lay down starring at the ceiling.

I hate myself. I wasn't meant to be born.

Life is shit, people say it's just god testing you, seriously if god was all nice and everything why would he do this? why would he make me think like this.

I can't cope with my mind. I can never think of the good things I do inlife, maybe it's 'cos I don't do any good things.

"Dan I'm going for a skate!" I shouted. I grabbed my skateboard,

I went to a parking lot, which had shops surrounding it. I climbed on top of a bin, then climbed up onto the roof. you could see all of the surrounding fields.

I got out my camera and flashed some shots. I layed back staring at the sky. if life could always be this relaxing I would love it!

My phone vibrated in my pocket

From Dan "Hey meet me at the movies later;)'

I sighed and put my phone away. if I feel like this about one boy why can't I be his forever. I breathed in the cool air for one last time and got up from my laying position.

I put in my earphones and ATL started playing, I started to hum along to it. I climbed down from the building and started to skate to a park for a quick cig.

I can't stop as much as I want to it's to nice to quit. I lit the cig an inhaled the smoke I looked at my surroundings while exhaling.

I shut my eyes for a brief moment. it was so silent apart from my music. I could hear the birds singing.

That's when someone scared me. someone jumped onto my back. my eyes burst open I turned around to see a man around 30years old. I started to crawl away but he grabbed my feet, I picked up my skateboard and smacked it around his face he went crashing into the grass.

I had enough time to get up and run but he started to catch up with me I was out of breathe. My breathing started to get heavy. I placed my skateboard on the floor with my shacking hands I jumped onto it and skated as fast as possible. I went down what I thought was a short cut that's when I got stuck in a dead end...