Hate And Love •M.A.D Fanfic•

Chapter 11

I woke up feeling so guilty I left Dan hanging. he said he loves me an I just didn't know what to say. I couldn't face him. he said he loves me. no one has ever told me that before.

I didn't even want to get out of bed. I could hear my own heart beating. the sound was getting louder and louder with every beat.

Love means you care about someone enough to put their needs before yours. no one has ever done that.

No one! my mum did though. she never showed it but she gave up her own life to save me.

I've never loved anyone. I don't know what love is. I know the stereotype, but that's it.

What If I love Dan. every time I see him I get this weird feeling in my stomach. I love being with him. He makes me happy. we don't always know what to talk about but he makes me happy. he always looks so perfect. I think I love him.

My phone started to vibrate. I picked it up an Dan was calling me. he'd been texting me all night. I didn't answer. what would I say to him?

Life is just so hard sometimes. What should I say? I can't say I love him it's to late. I've fucked things up like I always do. my life is a mess.

I need Dan. he will make me happy. but I can't talk to him... just makes things fucking great. I screw everything up. why me? why is my life so shit?

"I love him"

Woah, did I really just say that. I love him? I love Dan. now I just need to prove it.

Ugh! if only I could go back to last night, and change it. I just wanna talk to him an tell him I love him. I just can't find the words to tell him.

I got my phone an dialed Dan. After two rings he answered.

"Hello" he said

"..." I couldn't say anything, I tried to speak but no words came out.

"Dani? are you ok?" he asked

"I'm fine... it's just.." I say

"Thank god. I thought I screwed everything up. I understand if you don't feel the same way. it's just I thought you did. but can we just forget last night happened?"

"I don't want to forget last night" I say, my heart racing in my chest.

"B-but"

"I don't want to forget because.. you made me realize how I feel about... Dan I think I'm in love with you." I say, my heart was racing in my chest.

"Dani..."

"I have to go now bye" I hung up before he could reply. I could burst out into tears but I was so happy.

My heart was aching. I didn't like the feeling. I missed him so bad I need him right now.

I may have just ruined the relationship between me and Dan but it was worth it. now he knows I love him I've never felt better. its like I've just took a huge weight of my chest.

It had been eating away at me for ages and I've only just noticed that Dan is my first love and hopefully my only love.

He's just perfect I'm surprised that not everybody loves him. he is irresistible.

I wouldn't be here right now if it wasn't for him. someone knocked at my door. I run down stairs. opening the door before thinking. I gazed at the figure in front of me.

I didn't know how to feel. they pushed me up against the wall slammed the door shut behind him. he forced his lips against mine. taking of his jacket. I placed my hand on his neck.

Dan lifted my legs and placed then around his thighs. he walked me up the stairs then put me on my bed. he took of his top. then put his lips back on mine.

Before I knew it we were both laying in bed naked. I had my leg over him. we were both intertwined. I was kissing his chest and he was rubbing his fingers against my back. it felt so good. I never wanted this to end.

"I love you" Dan said

"I love you" I replied, smiling.