Why Is It Me?

Chapter 5

This chapter is in Andy's view.
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I read the letter that was given to me from Christine, I felt horrible. I was a horrible person making her feel the way she feeling. Why did she still love me, well she already answered that question. She must've been so confused, I wish I could tell her it was okay and I wasn't going to bully her anymore. But I couldn't.

*Bell*

I guess I'll go tell her father.....
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I got to the house that Christine put on the paper. It looks so run down. No place where someone should live, but she did. I saw a car in the drive way, I'm guessing that's her dads car.

I know on the door when I hear footsteps, heavy footsteps. This person opens the door and do I have to say I was disgusted. This man who was in front of me had a grey beard and hair, with wrinkle skin that was tan, and dark eyes that look like coal. He was wearing a dirty navy blue shirt and jeans, with a beer bottle half empty (in that kind of guy, I don't understand what half full is).

"What do you want?" The man asked

"Umm, does Christine Hopes live here?" I say acting calm.

"Yeah, what she do this time..." the man said looking upstairs and under his breath he said "bitch"

I tried my best not to put burst and tell him why I'm here.

"Do you know where she is? She wasn't at school...." before I could finish the man yells her name, I hate the way he said it. There was no sound, complete silence. The man booms again, yet still nothing. The man rushes upstairs. I walk inside. He man yells as if he's seen something horrific. I rush upstairs to see Christine in the tub, but it was filled with blood. Her arms had cuts on them, they said 'Thank You' and on the other 'Andy'. The man hurried up and calls the police but the police showed up already for now it was 5:30. She must've just killed herself, I run up to Christine. She was still warm, I call for one of the officers. One calls an ambulance and in no time there here taking her out of the tub.

"Young man what's your name?" One of the officers ask me.

"....Andy Graver"

The woman looks shocked and walked away knowing I didn't want to talk, she gets me a blanket and asks if I wanted to go home. I just said I wanted to go to the hospital. The woman takes me to the hospital and I sit in the waiting room for about an hour when a doctor comes out.

"I'm sorry for your lost." He says

I look up, to the doctor and thank him for him trying, I walk out of there and I think. What have I done? Am I such a horrible person, that I couldn't see what was going on? The picture of Christine's life less body came into my head, her skin, her arms, her cuts,
'Thank you....Andy'.

I started to cry, Andy Graver is crying. Never thought I see the day.

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2 years
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"Hey Christine, I came to give you your flowers. Your father is still in jail for abuse. I'm so sorry for what I have done. I hope you can forgive me. Bye Christine....thank you." I say and place beautiful white roses in her grave.
Here Lies Christine Hope
A loving person
May she sees her mother
1990-2008

"I learned my lesson"