Congenital insensitivity to pain→ryden ✓

sometimes you gotta kill your mind to stay alive

RYAN P.O.V

I'm utterly terrified I don't know what to do....his screaming still ringing in my ears and the back of my head,the thoughts of my mind clouding every need,every since,and all others I had to remember to breathe at some points,I was shaken to the core,confused it all went by so fast. The silence in the room only made my thoughts more clear which I hated

Have you ever been so scared that you cant move,at any moment you can feel yourself breaking down, your voice shaken with intimate fear,you can barely speak a word.....

I questioned my self....."did I bite him"is this the affect of the turning"did I do this"how can I fix this" those thoughts ran threw my head over and over again my stomach churning every second
Then it all came back to me

"BRENDON,BRENDON,BRENDON!!?" I yelled and shouted "WHATS HAPPENING!!" I exclaimed. I didn't care that both of our exposed body's lyed there,I didn't care if my mom walked in,I didn't care except I cared for one thing and one thing only"Brendon Boyd urie..."

"OH GOD" I said while running my hands through my hair and tears welling in my eyes. I was relieved when noticed his heart was still beating. I checked his neck to see if I had actually turned him,I was in a short amount of relief to see that he wasn't turned. The wound would be red if I just drank his blood,if I turned him it would be dark purple.

The point is that I'm scared......

BRENDONS POV

Darkness.....all I saw was darkness,I was confused, because I don't know where I am,I'm I dead...is this what its like no heaven no hell. But then a smell hit me,a horrid,disgusting smell that could only be described as "death " every breath I took I hated,it smelled so bad,the acid in my stomach began rising to my chest, I felt sick I found my self........in pain the one word I never knew how to say or do the pain I was enduring was unbelievable a mix of what people say is "hunger" it shredded through me

Darkness and drops of light fell around I struggled to get up,I hated it it made me feel disgusting...,I saw a pile of rotten body's and blood every where. This had to be dream it couldn't have been real,I was alone again"HELP ME!!"I pleaded and yelled
All that responded was my own ehco, I had a erge to do something that I couldn't make out, I wasn't in control of my own body,I wanted the pain to go away forever I just didn't know how to stop it. Being extremely light headed didnt help the nausea consuming me

I heard faint callings of my name

I was in a corridor type warehouse,that scared me even more

But nothing scared me more than the thought I had, I figures out what I needed for the pain to stop......I needed

Blood.....