Congenital insensitivity to pain→ryden ✓

by death do "me" part

BRENDONS POV

  Lights are fadeing. Forgetting my surroundings, so lightheaded I can bearly breathe....."stop.....ry...ryan...sto"I hardly can even move my lips "oh..oh no Brendon what ha....have I done....." That's the last thing I heard before passing out "what is this place its dark,humid I feel OK not in panic and in fear of anything anymore....." I say "hello?" Some one says "you are sealed away,from your true self what you really are,they sealed you because I hated what you were gonna be,or become,but in your protection,you were to,weak,to feeble to withstand the amount of your......gifts...save your..................." It says

  Next thing I know I'm sitting in a hospital bed my worst nightmare but not as worst as going home soon............"bren.....bren I'm so damn sorry"he says as tears run down his holding my shaky hand,I turn my head in shame of my self or am I just ashamed of him

Confused as to why he did this,he knew his limits,is this punishment, to have someone you fall for try too take your life,just like everyone else,no one is different,even non-humans,what is life anymore,why.....why do I deserve it,in this single moment in this single second of every moment,hour,day,week,year..........,I don't want this I never did,feeling like this.....is no feeling at all I just want it to end.......I'll have to forgive and forget,when I get back home I'll have to face it.........