Wayward

Untitled Part 26

"I love the new song you girls have out, which one of you wrote it?" The radio talk show host asked, I smiled and raised my hand. "Oh wow, it's really an amazing song. What is the meaning behind it?"

"Oh, um well-" I could tell the girls were watching me to see what I would say. "When rough things happen in life, you have a period of time after that you kind of just feel numb. This song explains the transition from feeling that numbness to experiencing new things; all because of one special person." I said somberly.

"That is just amazing." I smiled at her and shook my head.

"It's the job I love doing, I am lucky to even get this opportunity to travel with my best friends." I laughed smiling down the line.

"Right, so Kira; you and Liam?" I saw her cheeks get red and she smiled.

"I guess now is a good time, yes Liam and I are dating." My eyes widened and the radio host started rambling about how cute they are.

"How do you think the fans will feel about this?"

"I just hope they respect us and our privacy, we are just people. Normal humans, just trying to figure things out." The host nodded and then started asking us about our high school life.

"Well how is online schooling?" Kira laughed nervously.

"I mean, I know I'm a little behind." Kira glanced at the rest of us.

"Yeah same." Alilith and Karson mumbled. Everyone looked at me and I smiled.

"I'm caught up." Kira rolled her eyes.

"Typical." She scoffed laughing. I rolled my eyes. Soon enough the interview was over and we were in the bus off to the airport. I sat in my bunk and heard everyone in the front talking excitedly about going to Europe. I put my head in my hands and sighed. I am so lucky to be on tour and doing what I love yet I am not happy. What other people wouldn't give to be in my place, and I am blowing it. I laid down and looked up at the blank wood, feeling a little light headed. Maybe I should go shower, that will make me feel better. I stood up and opened the door, and everyone looked at me.

"I am just going to shower." I stated softly. I quickly walked through the main room and into the bathroom, I locked the door and leaned my head against it. Oh man I am really light headed. I glanced in the mirror and looked at myself. I looked down at my legs, I dropped my hand down and grabbed the fat. I shook my head and stood straight up. Facing the mirror I grabbed my stomach, pinching the fat I had. When did I last eat ? Three days ago? I knew I was getting worse, I decided to hurry up and shower. I leaned down and turned on the water, I tried standing back up but everything slowly went black.

"Haddi...........HADDI." I felt my eyelids and they were heavy, I tried lifting them and saw Liam's face.

"Liam..." I mumbled.

"Haddi, are you okay?" I finally opened my eyes and saw I was laying the bathroom floor, I noticed all the boys and girls looking in from the door.

"What happened?" I said, trying to sit up.

"You went to take a shower, we heard a loud crash and ran to see if you were okay. You were passed out in the bathtub." I knew exactly what happened and I knew the girls were going to be disappointed. I could feel their stares right now.

"Oh, I was just feeling a little sick. Must be getting a cold or something." I lied, smiling.

"Well you should get some sleep." Liam said helping me stand up.

"Of course." I nodded and he led me to the girls bunk, I laid down and Liam turned off the lights and shut the door. I sat up and walked over to the door, sitting against it I silently listened to the living room.

"Is she okay?" I heard Louis ask.

"Yeah, she said it must be a cold." Liam responded. I crawled back into my bunk and sighed. I heard the door open and close.

"Haddi." I looked up and saw the girls looking at me.

"Yeah.."

"You can't keep doing this." Kira said, shaking her head. "We love you but Haddi this cycle gets old."