cali,
Fairytales ain't shit.
How could someone cut you so deep and don't even realize how much it hurts? "Eat." Chris commended. "I have not one appetite" I starred at the food with disgust. "Well you have to take at least 2 bites and I'll leave you alone, you been re playing this 3 days in a row at dinner." Chris gave me a despair look, just hoping I'll recover from Tyga. "Why did we have to end up like this? " Here they come, they came shooting out my eyes. {TEARS}
"Maybe this is just temporary" He rubbed my back for support. "I hate part time people in my life. Who come and go. I hate the word 'Temporary'. I hate life right now." With those words I took my hand and covered my face as I cried. No one could understand what i was feeling right now. I let this Boy take care of me, I basically gave my life to him. I gave myself away to him; especially when I let him take what's precious to me; My Virginity. After having the thought of that I shot up from the table and went running to the bathroom with disgust. Why he do this to me? Kept replaying in my head.
After vomiting all over the bathroom, I sat in a bubble bath with my head tilt back. Why he do this to me? Still Was lingering to my thoughts. I cried, I cried. Tear after tear regretting becoming attached to some beast I couldn't tame. I closed my eyes and went away.
"Cali." A soft familiar voice went through my ears. "Moma?" I knew it was her from how she always let the 'I' Roll off her tongue whenever she calls my name. "Your heart has the last say so, when you need understanding follow it." By those words, I gasped for air coming back from my imagination.
I was still here, same olé little bathroom as my body was covered with bubbles.
I woke up next day. Dragging myself to work. The day was running slow, and I was so tired. "Im starvinggggggg" I whinned to Chris, but this was his 3rd time ignoring me. I looked over at him and whinned once more. "Starvation here" I huffed. "Cali, You've just left break from EATING. So I don't know what to tell you." He hissed. "Fuck you to than." I said under my breath with a rolling in the eyes. "I'm sorry what?" Chris shot a mean look at me. I stuck my tongue out.
On the way home I BEGGED Chris to pick up Food. On our way to get the food I ate FOOD. Well just some pickles and Hot flamin chips. "Drive slow" I yelled at Chris. "Women I'm going at least 50" He snapped.
3 month later.
"Well your showing just a LITTLE" Chris tilt his head. "Ugh I'm FAT" I cried. "Baby you got mommy gaining so much weight" I placed my hand on my tummy and gently rubbing it. "Please be a boy." I whispered, looking up at the heavens. I grabbed my purse off the couch and my car keys and drove off the the hospital. Today I was finding out the sex of my child. It all happened fast I could remember going to the doctor to see if a child was forming inside of me. I was eating extra, happy than sad, Started to walk funny..all sorts of changes.
I laid on the cold Hospital bed while the doctor poured blue jell on my belly. The ultrasound machine made so much noise as the Doctor moved it around. "Aww" I teared up as I saw my baby on the screen in black and white. I looked over at Chris who was all excited too. "Well Cali soneclar, We have a baby boy." The doctor smiled as he turned to me. I covered my face with my hands and began to cry. "I'm so happy" I chuckled.
Soon as I was walking out the hospital, I saw a couple holding hands. The girl was pregnant, bigger than me. While the boy held her stomach with his other hand. Instantly my heart twisted up. "Well, it looks like it's just you and my pal" I looked down at my stomach while rubbing it. Me missing tyga had to be part of my hormones, cause I really didn't want shit to do with him. It's been 3 whole months, Went all summer with NO communication. I knew soon Kalaya would be Coming home because school starts in the fall. I resist to abandon her like Ti'shi so some days I wouldn't mind going to chill with her.
