The Unexpected (Jacksgap FanFic)

This Is It

Jack’s POV

Day 1   

It was the day Jessie was getting out of hospital, I will always know what she banged her head on. Whether i tell anyone or not is a different story.   

I’ve not been talking to her as much. basically I’ve been shutting myself out from the world, I only speak to my mum when i want food.  

Day 1 went really quick though. I went to the hospital when Jessie was being let out to be a good… friend. The only conversation we had went like this:  

“Hey Jack!”   

“Hey. How are you?”  

“I feel fine, you?”  

“Yeah I’m good.”  

But i lied. I wasn’t good, I was far from it.  

I never knew you could hurt so bad. I thought it was a metaphor but i can literally feel my heart sinking every time i see her. I decided to write a letter to her.  

Jess,   I have made a lot of mistakes in my past. One of the reasons I moved here, but right now i feel like I've made the worst decision of my life. Maybe that was falling in love so fast, letting you go so easily or the fact that I'm moving on. I also don't know how people love. In the end you're losing the battle against yourself. You're the first person i have loved, but I don't know if you're meant to be the one I'm supposed to love.

Jack.

Day 2

The day i contemplated whether to send her this letter or not. Also a day my feelings for her became stronger through the distance.

Jessica Marie Andrews.

Why can't she stay out of my mind? It's not like we've had a fall out.. well we did but she lost her memory.. But we've actually broken up! 

Fuck, man get over her. There's plenty other girls why is she so special?

Because she's different, smart, funny, caring and sensitive. Not like any other girl you've been with.

My annoying conscience had to add. And he was right, but the Jess that will eventually get her memory back doesn't love me.

I decided to send her the letter later that night. 

I walked out of my house without even realising and putting the letter through her door. I sure hope that was the right decision.

Day 3

The day i got my ticket for vidcon. Not my first year, but my first year as a youtuber. It came with three tickets instead of two. One was for me, one was for Finn and the other was for Jess.

My whole life revolves around her.

I phoned up Jess that day and told her that her ticket was here. She was blunt with me so i guess she got the letter... Bad idea after all. Jessie was going as a youtuber too, her youtube account has almost 500,000 subscribers. Mostly because of me and Finn but she and Victoria have a lot of fans. They make seperate videos now though.

Kat came round to see how i was doing and told me Jessie was a wreck. I wasn't up for talking so i just listened and hid my emotions. That sinking feeling turned into a burning hole.

That night i went out for a drink to get her out of my mind, but i ended up going over to her house and getting a well-deserved slap. That's all i remember from that night.

Day 5

I got fed up with myself and decided to make a youtube video with Finn, it took up most of the day and it really cheered me up. Especially reading the comments and seeing how everyone else enjoyed it.

After that it sunk in again and i decided to stop fighting with myself. I began thinking of Jessie as much as i could.

She likes horse-riding, dancing, singing. Man can she sing. Her favourite colour is purple and she likes to cuddle up and watch films in her pyjamas all day. She thinks valentines day is sappy and overrated, her laugh is a killer and she hates wearing her glasses. She's only ever been in a relationship with me and I'm the only one that's broken her heart...

I opened my eyes to reality but it was all blurry. I had tears streaming down my face and i got out my guitar. I felt like Taylor swift, making up a song. Not a brake up song but a sorry song. It wasn't very good but it got everything that was weighing on my shoulders off.

Day 6

Jessie wouldn't talk to me. So i recorded my song and put it on youtube so she'd see it. Her fans would crazily tweet her or something and tell her to watch it right? 

I was starting to go mad and the only way to stop was to have her back in my life. Vidcon was in a few weeks so she'd have to talk to me surely. 

I spent most of my day on twitter, reading tweets and following people.

Day 10

I was eating everything, up to a point where there was no food in the house left to eat. I looked at old photos and smiled at the good times, frowning at the bad. 

She was the only thing on my mind, memories. Scotland, all the traveling, the scapbook, maths.

The day i met her. It all went too fast, maybe i moved too fast. But she moved just as fast as i did, the park, everything. Just flooding into my mind like a river bursting its banks.

I havent been going to school, i find it too hard to face everyone. But Finn says she's not been there too. It's all my fault. I've changed for the better since she's came into my life and I know I have.

Day 15

I'm finally going to talk to her whether she likes it or not. I got out of my bed and put a red top on along with some clean boxers, socks and jeans. before walking out the house i put on my shoes and put on a jacket.

My feet carried me all the way to Jessie's door and my hand knocked for me.

I could feel butterflys fluttering in my tummy anxoiusly until she opened the door.

She frowned. "Jack... Pleas-"

"Hear me out." i say before walking into the empty house and through into the living room before she can shut the door on me or change her mind.

She follows me through and sits down.

"Well..." She says bringing a tissue to her nose.

This is it Jack...