The Unexpected (Jacksgap FanFic)

Complicated

Jack's POV

Jessie sat with a pillow to her chest cuddling it. I felt really bad for everything and now it was time to let it all out whether she likes how I feel about her or not. I didn't know how to say what I wanted to say. I didn't even know what I wanted to say, I don't know why I came here. I shouldn't of, this was a big mistake.

"Well..." She repeats. Well what, Jack? C'mon you can't come here and say nothing, she'll hate you even more.

"I'm sorry, Jessie." Is all I manage to say. I start pacing about infront of her and I can tell she's getting f dizzy from watching me walk.

"Jack, if you've came here just to say that then go. Sorry is not good enough." I sigh at her response and sit myself down next to her.

"I know I've messed up, big time." I put my hand on her thigh trying to comfort her. "But, I don't know what's going on right now. You may love me and I certainly do love you but the Jessie before she this incident happened didn't love me. I just don't think it's right to take advantage of your love incase you get your memory back and you hate me forever."

"Jack-"

"Jessie. I love you, I know we're still young and I know I don't know what love feels like. Everyone has a different definition. And my definition is you, everything we had. And I'm sorry it had to end this way and I'll love you forever but I'm afraid you won't love me back forever."

"It doesn't make any sense." She shakes her head.

I nod and I feel my heart sin for the nth time today.

"I just don't know what to do." I admit, I don't know what to do. I don't want to be without her any longer but I know that I will be when she's better. "Why did you have to have amnesia? What did you even bang your head on?"

Then I remembered... The story I've been hiding from myself. What happened before I moved here.

"I can't remember." She giggles. "That comes with the amnesia."

I know what she hit her head on... I just can't admit to myself that I did it. Just like I can't admit to myself what happened.

I laugh along with her and hold her hand in mines.

"I'm sure going to miss this." I smile towards our intertwined hands and look into her eyes.

"I wish it just didn't have to be like this." Her eyes stare deeply into mine. Water growing in them.

"Shh.. Don't cry, please." A single year stream from her eye an she breaks eye contact.

"Why would I ever stop loving you?" She asks and I think.

I put my finger under her chin and she looks back up at me.

"Because, you came back at the wrong time and there was a misunderstanding."

"Was it my fault?" She asks, obviously hurt.

"No, baby no." I say without realising, wrapping my arms around her and the pillow. "It's all my own fault, just if Selena didn't bring you back at that time."

"I'm sorry." She says.

"There was nothing you could do." Jessie sobs into my chest and I do nothing but run my hand up and down her back in a comforting way. "I just wish you were back."

"I never went." She whispers and the breath at the back of my throat hitches.

"What do you mean?"

"I never went." She cries again. "I'm still here, just not as much of me. And I right now I love you."

I smile and kiss her head. "It jus doesn't work like that."

"Then we can still be friends right?"

"Of course we can."

I pull away a little and look down at her. She looks back up at me.

"After this." She says quietly and leans up, brushes her lips against mine. I can't help but put more pressure into the kiss before she pulls away.

"This is going to be hard." I rub the back of my head with my hand.

"I know." She replies. "There's one other thing."

"Yeah?"

"You said in the letter," she pauses. "That you've made a lot of mistakes, one being the reason your here."

I should've saw this coming sooner or later.

"Why did you move here?"

Why did I? It's such a long story, one that she doesn't need to know. When she gets her memory back, or if, will she remember everything I've said to her since she's lost it? That's something I'll never know until it happens. I don't want to go back into the dark place I left when I moved here, I'm not ready to. Maybe it's not that bad? It's not as bad as the mistake I made when I let Jess go, or the mistake I made by sending the letter or the mistake of getting close to Kat.

"Jack?"

Jessie's POV

He's hiding something. What if it's bad? What if he's cheated on a girl or got someone pregnant? No, he said that I'm the first person he's loved so why would he do something like that? I've never heard about his dad though. What if it's something to do with him? Or something worse... Maybe he's killed someone.

Get yourself together Jessie. Why would he do something like that? You know Jack better than anyone, and he's nothing like that.

"Jessie, please understand." He looks down and avoids all means of eye contact. It's making me more nervous than I should be.

"I will, be open with me please." I hold his hand to give him courage.

He looks into my eyes and I give him a reassuring nod. He looks down again before lifting the sleeve of his top, revealing lots of tiny marks. He then stands up without saying anything and lifts the back of his top. Bruises cover the whole of the bottom of his back and his shoulder blades.

What?

"There's many things to it Jessie."

"I'm here." I tell him. I don't know what's going on but I sure know he needs me more than anything.

"I used to drink, a lot. All the time." He looks down again. "I had a bad reputation, everyone hated me, picked fights with me."

He starts to tear up and pull him into me.

"They called me names, and to top it off my dad abused me and Finn." This is all to much to take in.

"And I just couldn't handle it, then I met you when I moved here and I thought to love you was the easiest way of happiness."

"And it was." I finish for him.

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