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by besidelu

by besidelu

hayley's point of view /

No sleep. Tossing and turning was what my night consisted of. I knew it was because of him, but I couldn't comprehend why. I kept thinking of why. Why was he making me loose sleep? Why was he making me feel this way? Why was he like this?

I wanted to admit that I was in love, but I couldn't. I didn't want to have what I previously had with my ex. I didn't want to admit to falling in love, and have the heartbreak that came with admitting something so, so, fatal. Fatal being an over exaggeration, but with what I dealt with in the past, seemed like a good metaphor. I didn't want to fall in love with him, it feeling wrong. IT feeling wrong because I lived in the same house as him. It feeling wrong because I just met him. It feeling wrong because, well, I just couldn't wrap my head around it. I couldn't wrap my head around the idea of Enoch, giving into the thought of even loving me. I didn't want to love him, if I knew he didn't feel the same back, because then it would remind me of my past relationship.

But on the other hand, I did want to love him, I wanted to love him so bad. I wanted to be able to kiss him whenever I wanted with no problem. I wanted to lay with him, our bodies pressed up, no cracks, no space between us. I wanted him, all to myself. I wanted to call him mine, but the fear of rejection played in my head, over and over. I was so conflicted with myself, sleep loss was a definite side affect.

I settled into a comfortable position. I tried to estimate a time, but it wasn't working. The sun was no where in sight, it didn't even look like to sun would be rising anytime soon. I then shut my eyes, trying to return to some type of sleep.

As I was drifting off, I heard the slightest knock at my door. I quickly became agitated, pushing the covers off my body, and making my way to the wooden door. I opened it, and my face once full of annoyance softened, as I learned it was Enoch. His face was filled with emotion I've never seen his face possess before.

" Enoch, what's wrong? "

" Hayley, I can't sleep " he said, his eyes struggling to stay open.

" What do you want me to do " I asked him.

" You think I could get some sleep here, with you? "

My heart was beating out of my chest, and of course, I said " yes " to his request.

He made his way into my room. I went back into bed first, him following me. I lay on my side, and he matched me, his body assuming the same position, but now his face was in front of mine. I caught myself staring in his eyes, getting lost in the hazel colored orbs.

He noticed, and let out a small laugh, his face illuminating up with a smile. " You're so cute, you know that " he whispered.

My face became warm again, a grin that went ear to ear took up my facial features.

" You're blushing " he said, touching the tops of my cheekbones.

" Stop it " I said, covering my face with my hands.

His large hands soon took them away from my face. " Don't hide from me, you're so beautiful " he said.

My stomach felt as if it was turning itself inside out.

" I thought you came in here to sleep, not make me blush with every word that escapes your lips " I said.

" Someone's a bit sassy " he remarked, making me chuckle.

" Goodnight beautiful " he muttered against my forehead, placing a delicate kiss on my temple.

" Goodnight Enoch " I said, pressing my body closer to him, fulfilling my wish from before.

a/n : " uGh katie can you ever do a proper update? " in all honesty, i've been slacking so hard on various things, this being one of them, and i'm so ashamed to say that. but honestly, i can't thank you enough for the continued support on this story. reading your feedback makes my day so much better, i love you guys so much. thank you for 2k+ reads and almost 100 votes, it honestly blows my mind. x

comments and feedback is always appreciated :)

( chapter will be edited v quickly, SORRY for errors )

-kt x