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birthdays. i hate em.

So for those of you who don't know (everyone of you) my birthday is next week on Tuesday (for those of you who will go to your calendar or are counting your fingers it's the 29th) I'm not saying how much older I'll be but I'm gonna list a 10 things I think about my birthday.

Number 1:
One more year towards death!

Number 2:
My mom goes out of her way to get me stuff for my birthday when all I really want is to be accepted or ignored.

Number 3:
Birthdays are just my way of saying "whoo hoo! Your growing up! Soon you'll be living alone!" ......NEXT!

Number 4:
I never really understood why some people act like my birthday is a big deal. I'm older! So what?

Number 5:
Parties. I hate parties! I'm not a big fan of cake (for those of you that gasped fuck off), I like balloons but it just ruins them and then theres the place you could have your party. You could stay at home and feel like a loser when no one comes to your parties ( I'd just like to say I had only 2 where I invited people and only one person came then no one at all.....it was in elementary school) or you could go some where and still feel like a loser when no one comes.

Number 6:
Whenever I'm invited to something I do everything in my power to make sure I go. But whenever I invite a small group of friends none of them come! It's always been like this! Whenever someone in class said something to someone I know and then I ask "what did you say?" They always respond with "nothing." Then someone else asked them the same thing and they tell them! (Or rather whisper it to them) Im starting to think that some people just say shit about me or something I would understand but they don't want to tell me because I'm weird! I fucking hate people sometimes....

Number 7:
The presents.....STOP! ok I understand I'll have some haters on this one but trust me. You'll understand! It's not like I get bad gifts but just! Stop waisting your money on me! I know it's a once a year thing but stop it! I don't want my mom or dad to spend stuff on me. Maybe just give me a few bucks and let me go to hot topic! (BTW best store ever!) If I wanted you to spend money on me I'd tell you and bug you constantly about things I want! And this is for my dad: stop asking me what I want!

Number 8:
Ok. So I know Ive been negative about the whole birthday thing but these last 3 are good things I like about birthdays. The fact I get to spend time with my family and get mobbed by my friends. It's kind of what keeps me up on my birthday. The feeling that even if you feel alone you've met someone or know someone that will always be there to wish you a good one.

Number 9:
My personal favorite thing about them is the memory's. I remember on my 9th birthday when my granny (grandma on dad's side) was still alive and we lived with her (may she rest easy) my dad got me a Tinkerbell pinata and I beat the hell out of it! I almost smacked my dad five times! And on my 10th birthday my mom let me decorate my own cake. It was a disaster and looked horrifying but it was still good! (For those of you who remember I don't like cake. It was a brownie cake!)

Number 10:
Remembering the fact I was born. I know that if I wasn't born there would be no one here to be exactly like me. And I would have never met the people, who I've known to love and hold dear. I deal with many problems but hey. No ones perfect. We all have flaws. Even the people we all look up to or think their perfect. They struggle with things to. So. In a way. We're not alone with things we fight.

And that's 10 things I think about my birthday. if you want me to do another 10 things on another topic then put it in the comments. And if anyone asks for a face revel I'm waiting for a while to do that. Anyways. Rock the house all you beautiful fanboys and fangirls.💓