Gray {discontinued}

f i v e

hey dolls. i was too lazy to add the lyrics and stuff, so there's only the YouTube video.

also, natsu is awesome.

The Monster by Eminem ft. Rihanna

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f i v e // s u n f l o w e r ~ s m i l e

After saying goodbye to Aedan, I trotted up to my apartment, the warm air inside hitting against my skin once I opened the door. It was a nice contrast to the night air I had previously endured. My head felt fuzzy and uneven, like someone had splattered too much paint onto a white canvas. Too many colors, too many words. I shrugged off my jacket onto my living room chair.

My apartment wasn't fancy, even though I had the option of getting a penthouse. There was something about the plain attire and accents that helped my headache after I came home. Nothing grand or over the top. The color scheme was the same throughout the apartment. Blacks, whites, blues, and grays. I sat down onto my living room chair, and slowly my tense bones unraveled. A few minutes of sweet silence passed.

    Warm arms wrapped around my neck. My eyes had slowly shut, but now they were wide and alert. My bones tensed. On instinct, I threw my head back into my attacker's forehead, not caring whether or not I had a worse headache than before. The person unwrapped their arms around me and stumbled back, groaning as they did so.

    "What the hell, Gray?!" a familiar, muffled voice shouted.

    I quickly whipped around. Her fuzzy, black hair stuck out in different directions like always. The strands framed a small, heart shaped face. A worried monster worked up my heart, but was quickly drowned. She groaned as she held a hand to her forehead, all the while giving me the stink eye.

"Hoe, is that you?" I hummed, trying to contain the urge to smile.

"Why, bitch, yes it is." Diana grunted.

    Diana stumbled over to sit on the couch. Her petite, brown body looked lovely against the white material. "Damn Gray, your head's harder than mine." she jabbered, and I sat beside her calmly.

    "What're you doing here?" I asked her, laying back against the furniture.

     She shrugged. "Can't say hi to my best friend?"

     I knocked my bare shoulder against hers. Our skin were like yin and yang, but both smooth and luminescent. "Of course you can, but it's dark out. I'll drive you home after a while."

     "I was hoping we could have a sleepover, like we used to?" she begged me with her big brown eyes.

I teasingly tapped my chin in thought at her. "Maybe."

Diana lied her head on my shoulder. Her black locks delicately tickled my skin. "But you'll have to tell me all of your deepest, darkest secrets." I murmured.

    "Bitch, you already know them."

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    Her smile reminded me of a sunflower.

    Beautiful, and like it's name, was as bright as the star that it reminded us of. Her intricately golden hair fell softly onto her shoulders as some of the loose strands escaped to tickled her lily-white skin. Skin that was still soft and full of youth. Warmth filled my chest as I looked at her through adoring eyes. Her soft sunflower smile soon faded. Her gray eyes, identical to mine, narrowed hatefully before opening her rosebud mouth.

    "Why didn't you notice?"

   My spine became rigid as I sat up gasping.

    My chest heaved up and down, while horrors and darkly sinister monsters swirled beneath my skin. Sweat coated my lily-white skin, softly dripping onto my blanket, which was clutched in my clammy hands. My heartbeat knocked against my eardrums painfully. Remnants of the nightmare before flitted across my mind, tainting the edges. My teeth ached a silent realization as I noticed I had been gritting my teeth.

    I saw movement stir. My heart hitched to my head. Automatically, my hand slipped against the pocket of my pants. Then I realized, my gun was in it's holster in my living room. I was also wearing my pajama pants. Panic threaded through me as fast as a bullet.

    "Mmm.....French fries....."

    My eyes shot towards the moving body. Diana restlessly stirred in her sleep. My heart settled down back into my ribcage. Her thick, big fuzzy curls stuck out in every direction, giving her the appearance of a cavewoman. Thick black eyelashes shifted against the smooth skin of her cheeks. That's right, I wasn't alone.

    I told myself this, over and over, but it didn't fill the ache that had punched itself into my heart and mind. I loved Diana, but she would never understand the true weight of my monsters that constantly held onto my shoulders. They were always there, waiting for the right moment to pounce on me. The memory of a pair of gray eyes narrowed in hatred had burned itself into my current line of thoughts. I knew the minute I woke up I wouldn't be able to go back to sleep.

    So I didn't waste time trying.

The cool air hit my body when I slipped out of the warm blankets on the floor, caressing my bare skin so that goosebumps would pop up to say hello. A cold shiver ran up my spine. I instantly missed the warmth, but the cold helped me clear my head, even if it was just a tiny bit. I tiptoed around a deeply sleeping Diana. The urge to stay and make sure she would be safe was strong, but the want of a clear night was stronger.

Diana and I had made a mess of pillows and blankets, our definition of a girls night. I had traded in my warm bed for a spot on the cold floor, but I didn't mind it one bit. I threw on a warm jacket and shoes, not bothering to change out of my pajamas. After making sure that my phone was safely tucked into my pocket, I made a start for the door.

I was fully aware that a whole Mafia was after my head, but I didn't care. I didn't feel like worrying at the moment. When my mind was fuzzy and overloaded, there was only a matter of time before I broke if I didn't do something calming and remotely normal. A full night of just the city and me was something that would maybe do it.

I knew fully well that just one night wouldn't cut it, but I felt like it would help. I left my apartment, making a note to lock the door.

The weight of my gun comforted me, even if it was just for a tiny bit.

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hey guys. sorry this took so long, school's been running me into the ground lately.

next chapter will be fun, unlike this filler one😅

p.s.
to elementary kids & middle schoolers:
be grateful your not in high school yet.