"Look at this one Drew!" Jazzy runs over to me and practically shoves another one of her coloring pages in my face. I force a small smile and nod at her, making her sigh since I haven't spoken to her either since she woke up and dragged me to her room to show her all of her drawings that morning. "And this one to daddy!" My son runs over to me as well and brings his spider man coloring page to me. I nod at him as well and watch as him and Jazzy share a look with each other. Just then the alarm on my phone goes off like it goes every morning during the weekdays at eight o'clock which means avalnna should be waking up. Drew's eyes light up at the sound of my phone going off. "Gotta go give mommy good morning kissies." He gets up and runs out of the room, leaving me and my little sister alone for the first time in what feels like forever. The tension is thick and the atmosphere feels awkward. It shouldn't though, I'm a twenty three year old man with a seven year old little girl, she's Jazzy and I'm Jason, I'm the big brother and she's my little sister, I protect her and she makes me whole. It shouldn't feel like this.
So why does it?
I sit there, thinking to myself and getting so lost in my own thoughts that I don't realize she sits right beside me, under my shoulder that was propped on top of the very end of her bed. It's silent and it's like neither on of us wants to break the ice. I can't look at her. All of the lies and secrets I've kept from her her entire life are finally seeming to come up, but all at once.
God, I hate this.
"We had a daddy-daughter dance at school on Saturday." She breaks the silence. I furrow my eyebrows and look down at her, but she just kept staring forward like she was deep in thought, like she was in some kind of a trance. I tap her arm and she looks up at me. I tilt my head up at her, silently asking her 'why?' As in 'Why didn't you tell me?' She shrugs which shows me she understood what I was trying to ask her. "I didn't tell you because I didn't want you there." She mumbles but I hear her. Her words were like her digging into my heart with a knife. "W-why?" I finally bring myself to speak up. She looks slightly surprised that I decided to talk since I woke up this morning (and last night) but seems to shake it off quickly. "I don't know. I'm tired of not having a daddy and other kids get to. All the other girls and my friends all went to the dance. Even Jessica got to go." She makes a disgusted face when she says that name, like she despises the girl or something. "Who's Jessica?" I ask her softly. "A girl who's always mean to me and her daddy always buys her everything and always goes to all the daddy things at school. She makes fun of me because I always have my brother go instead of my daddy." She glares down at her hands. I take in a deep breath. "How come you didn't tell me this sooner Jaz? I could've done something." I tell her. She shrugged again. "It's not worth it." She mumbled and stood up to walk over to her bed. I run my face in anxiousness.
I can't believe I'm actually gonna tell my little sister what I've been keeping from her for her whole life basically.
"Jazzy? Come here sweetheart, I got something really really important to tell you." I say before she can even climb into her bed. She sighs and makes her way over to me, moping the whole time. I grab her hands into mine and stare into her big brown eyes and then take in a deep breath. I let out a chuckle even though there was nothing funny about this situation. At all. "I'm about to tell you something but you gotta promise that no matter what, I'll always be your Drew bear and you'll always be my Princess Jazzy, okay? And you gotta promise that you know that I love you and I did this to keep you safe, you're always gonna my favorite little girl and nobody will even change that, deal?" I whisper to her urgently. She shifts and nods hesitantly. "Drew, you're scaring me." She whimpers. I just stare into her eyes intimidatingly, not daring to break eye contact. "J-just promise me Jazzy, I really need to hear you say it." I basically beg her. "I promise Drew bear." She whispers. I nod and look down briefly before looking back up at her. I clear my throat. "Um, you know how Rachel is your big sister and I'm your big brother?" She nods. "Well, Rachel is Drew's big sister, but not yours." Her eyebrows furrow together in confusion. "I don't understand..." she trails off. "Well you know how you say you don't have a mommy or daddy?" I ask her another question. She again, nods uncertainly. "Well your mommy is gone because God needed her to go back up to heaven with him and help keep the world safe." I look at her through my glossy eyes and watch as tears begin to form in her brown orbs and slowly stream down her cheeks. "W-what do you mean?" She asks. I take in a deep breath and continue on. "You also had a twin sister Jazmyn. She looked just like you, she was so beautiful just like you and I wish you could've met her, I wish I could've met her properly but there were some really selfish people out there and they just wanted to hurt my feelings so they took away what I would most care about," I pause to see her confused but sad. "I-I had a twin sister?" She asks me. I nod. "That's not it though," I wipe my mouth and look at her intensely with tears rolling down my cheeks as well. "I'm not your brother Jazzy," I choked on a sob.
"I'm your dad."
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