Touch Me

Note

  My wrist still feel like they are on fire from yesterday. Adam's grip was so hard I still can feel his hands on my wrists, I have to cover them so nobody sees them at school and thinks other things. I pull on my knitted sweater and boots, I grab my bag and head out. This time I take the car so I don't have to run into Adam while I walk home with Teddy.
 
"Mom I'm taking the car okay?" I say from the door

"Okay! Be careful and don't forget to buy the groceries. I left the money on the kitchen counter." She says from upstairs

I walk into the kitchen and take the money from the counter. I shove it in my bag and walk out the door, Teddy and I hop in the car and I drop him off at school.

"Love you bud have a great day" I smile at him as he gets out

"Love you to Sam" he closes the door and runs inside

I drive off and turn up the music, I'm scared to go to school after what Adam did to me. I have to sit next to him in English and I'm terrified, I should just ditch, no I can't. I should just drop out, that's silly I can't do that. I'm a junior I'm almost done with school. As I park my car I sigh, I don't want to leave the car.

I step out and grab my bag from the back seat. I lock my car and head inside the school, I go to where me and my friends hang out and we talk till the bell rings. We talk for about 20 minutes and I leave to get to my class. The day goes by quickly and I'm glad because I really want to leave. English period is next and I can hear my heart beating, I won't make things awkward with Adam. I will cover my wrists so he can't see them, I will ignore him.

I sit in my seat and 5 minutes later Adam sits in his seat, I try to scoot over and he looks at me.

"You don't have to do this Sam"

I ignore him

"Sam I know what I did was wrong, I miss you Sam I really do. I couldn't go to bed last night because I was thinking about you so much. Please just talk to me" he touches my wrist

I wince in pain and pull away

"What? What happened?" He pulls my sleeve up

His eyes are wide and his hands are shaking.

"D.....Did I do this to you?"

I look away and I pull my sleeves down

"Sam please.... I know I can't make it up to you but I will I promise Sam... give me another chance"

"How do I know you won't hurt me again? How do I know Adam?"

" Please Sam" he puts his hand on my thigh

I push his hand away and I continue with the lesson. The bell rings and I begin to walk to my car, I open the door and a hand pushes the door

"Sam"

"What do you want Adam? I told you this already you ca-"

"I know what you said I just want to talk to you, Teddy gets released at 2:15 just let me talk to you. Okay?"

"O.... okay"

Adam opens the door to the back of my car and I get in first. Adam shuts the door and look at me.

"Sam.... I know I hurt you and I know it was wrong but I got scared and I didn't know what to do. You slapped me and I got mad because you should have not done th-"

"I should have not done that? Really Adam. You started yelling at me about a decision I knew that was right for Teddy and I"

He signs and runs his hand through his hair

"Adam.... just get out of my car"

And so he does, I'm alone. Crying.

I look to my side, a note. From Adam.