Everything In Mind But Never Spoken.

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Me and her? No, we're not friends.
We're strangers with memories, memories that are too vague and out of my mind. i only remember the times your lips have touched me, when we tried to save each other and anytime you showed your love for me. i remember you kissing my cheek while we ate cheetos. i remember you using my phone to prank text your friends. i remember us kind of cuddling while watching West side story. i remember you convincing all of her friends at her party to stop by and visit me. i remember letting you wear my sweater for the longest time and it smelling like you when i got it back. i remember when we kissed, i felt so accomplished. i could feel your lips against mine all the way home on the bus ride. i remember our long conversations at 2 am over facetime. i remember you begging to see my face because you hadn't seen it all summer. i remember you making toast at 3 am while your cat licked the butter. i remember crying to you over facetime because i thought emma had killed herself and you were the only thing to calm me down. i remember you being jealous because i got my first girlfriend. i remember you being protective of me when i was with emma. i remember when i tried to talk you out of self harm, many times, over kik. i really hope i got to you at least once. i remember you making a heart with your hands as you left on the bus. yeah i'm over you, but that doesn't mean that i am going to forget you. You were the first person you that made this shit town feel like heaven. i guess you can say i miss you, but i miss the old you. the one i fell for, not the one who gets fingered at parties and sends nudes. (which i wouldn't mind getting. cough cough.)

the stupidest thing i've ever heard is when two people love each other but aren't together.

i was right, you only come when you need me. you only come to me when you need a shoulder to cry on, someone to vent to, someone to make believe that you aren't going to wake up the next morning. i cant believe i actually let you play with me once again.