Everything In Mind But Never Spoken.

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i swear i get used more than your instagram story when you fucking need me. what about me huh? you weren't there for me when i was broken? not when you broke me, not when she broke me. you're only here for me when i catch feelings for you, not that they fucking last long, you drive me away and go back to another one of your exes  like fucking always. i remember when i wasn't even your first option, i was your third.

things to look for when deciding which exes to tolerate;
• which ones don't support trump
— 1 out of 4
• who likes cheese
— 1 out of 4
• who doesn't use me
— 2 or 3 out of 4
• who calls me their best friend
— ALL OF THEM COOL
• who's nice to me
— 2 out of 4
• which one do i kinda want back
— uh
• who talk to me when they don't need me
— 1 or 2 out of 4
ladies and gentlemen, i shall only tolerate 3/4 of them. brooklynn because she'd kill me if i didn't. kailynn because, hm, i don't know why. probably because she's the one who doesn't ignore me unless she's mad at me. in the long run i wouldn't, she catches feelings for guys too fast. faith because she's faith and she doesn't like trump. (i didn't fucking stay up just to debate this. it's only 1:31 am.)

if i love you, then why am i trying to get over you? is it because you told me to a couple months ago or because i convinced myself that you moved on?

ouch. fucking. ouch. next time you fucking text me, don't expect me to fucking answer. i'm done. i'm really done this time. yeah i fucking love you, but even i know when it's time to stop letting people hurt me. so fucking screw you.

i'm tired of you fucking having me assure you if i love you. you have a boyfriend???? why don't you ask him if he loves you and not some guy who you've never thought of that way? guess what k? i don't fucking love you in the slightest. i love fucking faith. you were just a rebound that i had for two fucking days.

it's my fault. i let you in one too many times. i should've known you would just leave out of the blue again. i guess i just expected more. you see, i'm too in love with you.

doubt i'll write for a while. not sorry.
- prince chase xx