nyctophilia (5sos)

Chapter twelve; breakup? Or makeup?

"hey Ashton" I look up at the sweet boy, comforting me.

"yes, cat?"

"thank you for being here. I don't know why I came to you, but I'm glad I did" I sit up, looking him in the eye.

"I am too" we just sit here, staring at each other, and with out thinking, I lean in, connecting our lips and closing the gap between us. Ashton instantly gives in, deepening the kiss as I climb onto him, straddling his torso, reminding me of what luke and I had done so many times before. Luke, oh my god. I instantly pull away from Ashton.

"I'm sorry, I am so, so sorry" I tell him, repeatedly before running out if the house and to my car, driving home.

Once home, I sit in my car, trying to control my sobbing. Luke's car is parked in It's usual spot, notifying me that he's in the house. Wiping my tear stained cheeks, I get out if the car and head inside, only to break into tears once I see Luke.

"Catlin, oh my god, are you okay?" He bombards me as soon as I close the door. "I was worried sick about you! Your swim coach called and said that you left in the middle of tryouts, and that your dad was there looking for you." Wrapping his arms around me, I can't stand to keep this from him. We've never kept anything from each other and now I feel as if I was a completely different person.

"Luke" I hiccup, "I-I love you." I tell him, crying into his shoulder.

"I love you too. So, so much." He says, without a clue I just cheated on him with one of his best mates. "where did you go after you left the pool? Who's clothes are those?"

"I went to Ashton's house... They're his clothes." I tell him, not quite ready to rip off the band aid.

"why would you go there? Why wouldn't you just come home?" He asks me. Quickly, I think of an excuse.

"I thought my dad might come here, looking for me" god, who am I? I've never, ever lied to Luke. "I kissed Ashton." I whisper, still with my face buried in his chest, humiliated.

"you, you what?"he asks, unlatching his arms from around my waist. He's hurt. Of course he would be hurt. What else would he be? "angry" my annoying subconscious reminds me.

"luke, please understand. I didn't go there with that intention. I just wanted someone to talk to! He was there for me, and I was hurt, and vulnerable. I pulled away from him as soon as I realized what was happening, and I left!" I defend my terrible actions.

"I am here for you! I have always been here for you!" He yells at me. "I understand you're hurt, and I understand that you needed someone to talk to but Caitlin, I'm right here." He's starting to let his anger get the best of him, turning around and punching the wall behind him, leaving a large hole in the drywall. "I'm done." He states, quietly. Looking at the floor then grabbing his keys, heading for the door, my heart shattering.

"Luke, please!" I yell, sobbing. "don't go, we can make it through this. We love each other, so, so much. You can't just walk away!" I'm now standing in front of the door.

"yes, Caitlin. I do love you, so so much. The problem is, I don't think you love me anymore." He says, pushing me aside, gently and walking out the door and to his car, pulling out of my driveway and speeding away.

Looking at the clock, it's only 8 o'clock. Walking up my stairs, slowly and unmotivated. Once in my room, I remove Asheton's clothes. leaving them in a pile on the floor, I grab one of Luke's t-shirts out of my wardrobe and slip it on. crawling into bed and turning on ' welcome to my life' by simple plan, I begin to Drift off to sleep.

"love, wake up." I hear Luke's voice, cooing me awake. No, it can't be Luke, He left me. "Caitlin" the source of the mystery guy, shakes my arm. Opening my eyes, I turn around meeting the blue eyes I've come to love so much.

"luke?" I glance at the clock on my bedside table reading '2:48 Am' "what are you doing here?" I ask him, still not sure if I'm dreaming or not.

"I can't leave you. I know it's only been a few hours, but damn I cant stand not being able to say 'my girlfriend, cat' and I can't stand not sleeping next to you at night." He says, reaching up and placing his hand on my cheek, wiping away a tear with his thumb. "I also can't stand the thought of you crying yourself to sleep." Getting up off the floor, he pulls my silky, black duvet, crawling in beside me, wrapping his arms around my waist.

"hey luke?"

"yes?"

"can we not tell anyone about this?" I ask, looking up at him.

"whatever you choose to do, ill be here, beside you." He says, kissing my forehead, pulling me closer to his chest.

"I love you" I whisper into his chest, just before drifting back to sleep.

A/N

Yikes, so much going on. But hey, they're okay, so I'm happy :)) who do you ship Cat with? Luke? Or Ashton? Lemme know in the comments. And don't forget to vote. Ily.

Xo, Cat. <3