DAMAGED (the love begins)

Chapter 3- Mood swings?

After our little session last night, I found myself at the studio the next morning before the arranged time. I wanted to give my best first impression on the first day of the rehearsals. I sat down on the near by chair as I started to day dream again.

All I could think about was Zayn. How can I give in so quickly, I mean I know he doesn't care about me at all but it was one of those feeling that felt so wrong but right at the same time. Like it was meant to be.

Like he wanted me to feel weak, powerless and vulnerable. But maybe he did feel guilty for treating me bad but didn't wanted to show his feelings. After all Zayn Malik is a private person.

My phone interrupted my thoughts, when it started ringing. I pulled out my phone and saw it was Mr. Sean's message saying that he's sorry but they'll be an hour late and I should come back after an hour. I quickly replied back with 'no problem' and switched off my phone.

I could get something to eat. I'm starving. I took out my phone again and texted Jasmine to meet me at Starbucks. She simply replied with an 'okay'. I want kody to be there with me because I feel safe with him but being in university means no free time.

At Starbucks, I was waiting for Jasmine. She's always late. I really wanna tell her what happened yesterday after she left with kody but at the same time I don't. I know how she could react. Either she would freak out or kill Zayn. If I tell kody, he would simply hurt Zayn physically without a second thought. I remember once this guy named Luke, school's most popular guy may I add, kissed me which got kody so mad that Luke showed up after a week with a broken leg. That scared the shit out of every guy in our school.

I don't want kody to hurt Zayn in any way. But I need to tell someone. I need to get this off my chest.

"Hey Laila" Jasmine came running towards me and hugged me. I gladly hugged her back.

"Hey Jasmine, what took you so long?"

"Oh you know, I just saw a really hot guy on my way so I stopped at started to chat later on finding out that he was gay" she said between laughter. "I mean I wasted my 10 minutes on a guy who is not even interested in females. can you believe that?".

I laughed along with her. One thing I love about Jasmine was that she is so carefree. I think I should tell her.

"Hey Jazz, listen I need to tell you something". I started out nervously.

"Yea" she said, wanting me to continue

I took a deep breath and told her. Everything. It's not like we had sex but It was a big deal because I was still a virgin and only kissed Luke other then Zayn. Jasmine always wanted me to lose my virginity by getting drunk and having sex with a stranger but I can't do that. I believe, you need to be in love in order to have sex.

She was stocked at first but later she was happy that I was making progress.

" I still can't believe you kissed Zayn fucking Malik"

"Made out" I corrected her. To be honest I was a little proud of myself. I always wanted to kiss him. Everyone wants too I mean look at him, he's gorgeous.

After an hour later, Jasmine went to her class which was starting in 5 minutes and I went straight to the studio. Mmmmh 5 minutes late. Good job Laila. I'm proud of you.

As I walked in, I greeted everyone one, Mr. Sean, Louis, Liam, Niall, Harry but Zayn was no where to be seen. I felt a little bit disappointed. After we finished the rehearsal me and Liam say down together waiting for others to come.

"Sorry about yesterday Laila" Liam started to talk. "Zayn gets carried away sometimes but he's a really nice person. He has his heart on in sleeve. don't be mad at him"

"I'm not, everyone makes mistakes" I smile. Liam really does care about his friends. I like that.

"Since Rose left him, he's heart broken. He doesn't know that he's hurting them but if he knew what he's doing, he'll beg for forgiveness".

"Liam don't worry, I know he's nice and......"

"Stop the bullshit about me"

We both turn around to face an Zayn. Damn he looks hot. Wait what am I thinking.

"Zayn, mate-"

"No Liam, it's my fucking life. Don't tell others about it. They'll do anything to be noticed" I suddenly felt the urge to cry when I saw his face of......disgust?

I've never felt so ashamed in my life.

"And you" Zayn turned to me. "I know how much of a whore you are. I saw how thirsty you were last night for a rich guy like me to get into your pants"

Ouch.

"Zayn stop" Liam finally said

"No Liam"

"Yes Zayn, you're hurting her. Look at her".

Zayn looked at me and I saw guilt, regret in his eyes. What????

"Look Laila I'm sorr-" Zayn started only to be interrupt by me

" Liam I gotta go. I have to go study for my test tomorrow. Bye" and with that I walk away.

Once again, I let Zayn Malik win. But next time, I won't let you win Malik. I'll hurt you like you've hurt me. I wipe away the tear that had escaped my eyes and suddenly I had this confident built up inside me.

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