Jilly short stories

Tension

Lily's POV
It's another cold night tonight, my hands feel numb and Im shaking as I walk through the deserted corridors.
Iv been on duty with James for about half an hour now and it's times like these I'm beginning to realise maybe we could work out.

Being heads we now spend a lot of time together and he's really startling to grow on me. Or in other words I think I'm falling in love with him, I'm just to scared to say anything.
He hasn't asked me out once this whole year and apart from a small comment here and there he's been very friendly and not insinuated anything.

As we're mid convocation he takes of his scarf and wraps it around my shoulders so naturally I almost don't notice the contact until his warm hands brush past my neck. He hesitates as I bring mine up to unjust my hair around the material, briefly touching his. "Merlin lil your hands are freezing" he exclaims taking them both in his own and pulling me close into his chest. I laugh nervously and can't help but smile until I realise the very small gap between us. He's leaning down so much that I'd only need to stretch up a centimetre or two to touch his lips. Oh come on Lily snap out of it! "Um yeah i guess I'm just a naturally cold person" he shakes his head and lets out a small laugh Turing around and pulling me with him so that our hands are still intwined but we're walking on. "Please you're anything but a cold person" he laughs dismissively. "You know what I mean" I smile.

As we finish our round we get up to the portrait hole to our dorm, for some reason I feel the need to pause. He already told me he needs to go and see Sirius quickly before going to bed but I feel like iv got this pull towards him, like the thought of going up alone is frightening. What on earth is happening to me?

I'm standing on a step so I'm slightly higher up that I normally would be next to him and as if it's even possible I think there's even more tension. "I..I just wanted to say thank you for taking this whole thing seriously"
he smiles, his kind hazel eyes melting any grudge Iv been holding against him, any doubt I had that I didn't love him. "Well I know it's Important to you and believe it or not I think I might have grown up a bit this year"
"yes you have" I sigh contently.
Our eyes are locked on each other and I'm having to restrain myself from practically leaping onto him. Be responsible Lily.
He leans down even more but doesn't quite make contact. "I..uh..I though you needed to go" I mumble instantly regretting it.
He pulls away but not enough that I can't still feel his warm breath on my face, "yeah yeah I do" he says.

We stare intensely in silence for a few seconds, neither one of us knowing what do do. I can't even explain all the waves of feelings I'm having right now or why I'm suddenly so attached to him. "I'm glad you've noticed that iv changed" he says running both his hands down my arms, watching them fall until they meet my finger tips and his gaze locks back onto me directly. "I have" I tell him again feeling the urge to lean just a little closer.
This is ridiculous what am I doing?
"I guess I should go to bed then" I murmur, Turing around to go but just as my fingers are about to lose contact with him he grips my waist and spins me around again only this time there's to gap. I'm pressed up against his chest, arms around his neck while his are wrapped tightly around me closing any possible space there might be.
I can feel the heat radiating off of us as we release all of the built up tension and desire over what I thought was only the past 6 months but I now realise may have been over years
in one kiss.

My mind is racing but I can't focus anything else other than James. I pull him backwards nearly causing us to fall through the portrait hole but I'm supported by his strong arms.

I feel like I'm pouring out every feeling iv ever had for him and everything iv been trying to hide into this kiss, into this one moment am I trying to show him how I really feel. And from his response I'm getting the impression so is he. "Lily" he mumbles into the kiss.
"Shhh" I reply quickly pulling him down closer to me. I never want this to end and I'm terrified of what the aftermath is going to be, how this is going to work but I know I'm in love with him, I know that I want nothing more than to be with him and I'm going to try everything to make sure it does as I can't possibly imagine feeling this way about anyone else.
I love James Potter and I refuse to ever let him go.