Jilly short stories

Lies

Lily's pov
I'm tapping the end of my pen on the desk, i never used to use pens at Hogwarts but since the incident with Snape and the ridiculous ridiculing over me being a muggle born iv tried to make a statement. I'm proud of who I am and nothing can change that.

After staring down at my blank page for several minutes I hear the doors to the library open. Instinctively I look up to see him striding towards me, a small smile on his face as he gets closer. "Hey" I greet him standing up and placing my pen down on the table. "Hi" he replies pulling me in to kiss him. I feel slightly weird about showing such affection in front of so many people but it's not that bad I suppose.
He pulls away and smirks before leading me out into the corridor. I laugh as he pulls me along and the doors close behind me.

As soon as we're alone he pushes me against the cold stone wall and crushes his lips into mine. I always thought it would be some sort of huge life changing moment when I kissed someone, like fireworks or a 'spark' as they say. But there wasn't really anything like that, I guess not everything is what you expect it to be.

I feel his hands travel down my arms and put pressure against my hips on the wall. "Stop, stop" I say in between my heavy breaths. His lips move down to my neck. "Come on joe stop" I repeat causing him to pull back looking disappointed. "Why?" He whines with a smirk as he begins to lean back into me. "Because.."
I say pushing him away a bit. "We're stood in the middle of the corridor for a start"
"Why don't we go back to your dorm then?" He suggests. I hesitate before answering, the panic probably clear on my face. "I...uh...we.."
His expression changes into a snarl and he turns away from me. "It's him isn't it! You don't want him to see us" he spits.
"What? No of course not I..I just think it would be best if he didn't" I try to explain but it's too late. "God Lily why do you care what he sees?!"
"I don't!" I lie, but he doesn't believe me. Instead he marches of towards the great hall.
"Don't bother coming to find me" he shouts as he turns the corner and leaves.

I sigh and fall back against the wall, catching my breath for several minutes. Eventually I decide I have to go back to my dorm.

I peer around the portrait before entering, I can't see James anywhere so I continue in.
Once I get up to my room I quickly shower and change my clothes. As I pull my shirt down over my head I remember the things I left in the library, with joe distracting me I must have forgotten them. With a groan I put on my shoes and stalk off to get my stuff.

When I get to the library it's almost completely empty. I go over to where I was doing my work and gather up the things I left, placing papers together and stacking up the books I was using. As I wonder down one of the many isles of books I hear breathing behind me. My arm drops from putting the book away and I take a deep breath before turning around. As soon as his eyes meet mine I feel the familiar rush of feelings that seems to be impossible to escape from. Every time I see him it's the same overwhelming emotions. "Hey Lily" he smiles weakly. "James you shouldn't be here...we shouldn't....I just can't talk to you right now" I say turning back around to finish putting away the books in my arms. He follows me around the isles until I place the last one back where I got it from and go back over to get my papers.
"James what do you want?!" I ask irritated.
He looks hurt. "What do I want? What do you think I want?" He steps forward and takes my hand causing shivers to immediately shoot up my arms. I don't pull away like I should but instead I let my fingers intwine with his, feeling the warmth and softness of skin on mine. "Lily please just give me a chance" he pleads getting closer again. I shake my head as my eyes start to sting. "No! No I can't" I say stepping back so our hands fall apart. He frowns and looks down to where they were once clasped together, he looks suddenly confused and lunges forward to grab my wrist. "What is this?" He demands raising my arm to let the fabric fall down to my elbow leaving the dark blue and purple skin on show.
"It's nothing" I say angrily pulling my arm away and the sleeve on my shirt back down to cover the marks.
"Lily that is not nothing, look at what he's doing to you! How could you possibly think I could hurt you like that?" he asks, his voice breaking at the end. "James I don't think you'll physically hurt me but I can't trust you enough not the break my heart so if being with joe is the only way to get you to see that then that's what I'm going to do. How can I believe you actually love me when iv spent years watching you use girls like they're nothing" my words clearly hurt him but he still stands strong and faces me, his gaze never leaving mine.
"I won't though you have to believe me"
He looks so desperate, I have to go before I break.
"You have to leave me alone James we're never going to be together" the pain in his eyes is almost unbearable, my heart breaking as I walk away from him. "Lily" he calls out but I don't stop.

I walk straight to the great hall and go take my usual seat, James's pained expression etched on my mind. As Im about to sit down I catch the end of a conversation between joe and cara, a sixth year ravenclaw. "Oh don't worry about her, I'm only using her to get back at Potter. I couldn't care less about her. She was even dumb enough to believe all that crap I made up about him. Stupid girl" he says in a hushed tone. She giggles under her breath and leans in to whisper something in his ear before getting up and leaving. I feel the urge to scream or break something but I don't, instead I take a deep breath and sit down to greet him like I didn't hear anything.
"I'm sorry about earlier" I say when he turns to look at me. "It's fine, I don't know why I got so worked up over Potter he'll never have you" he grins. I laugh without humor before pouring myself a class of pumpkin juice.

At this moment I can't help but think back to how I got here in the first place.
Me and James had just began to get closer through being heads and sharing a dorm.
Memories flash through my mind.
Joe asking me to be his girlfriend at the start of the year and me saying yes, at the time I did like him and I wanted to prove that I wasn't James potters property.

The next of me and James on our rounds together, laughing and joking.
Him consoling me when I got the news that my dad had passed away after years of battling a cruel disease. I'd cried to him for hours and he simply sat and listened, rubbing my back and telling me everything was going to be okay.

It moves on to memories of me talking to joe, him telling me he'd never cheat on me, he'd never hurt me in that way and that James would. Even when he hit me for the first time I forgave him because I wanted to help, wanted to show him he could over come his anger problems, but they only got worse. All this time I'd believed him when he told me things about James. 

They'd always had some what of a competition with each other but I never through I'd be a part of it, I never thought he'd lie like that to keep me and James apart. I truly believed him when he said that James had been telling people he never cared about me, that the night be asked me to leave joe for him he'd also been kissing another girl just an hour before. How could I have been so obvious. I'm done with his games.  I wait until the whole hall is almost completely full with students and I catch sight of James's strolling in with Sirius at his side. He stops and stands beside the table talking to Frank Longbottom. Now's my chance.

I feel joe lean in and snake his arm around my waist. "Lets make him jealous. I wanna see his face when he remembers you're mine" he growls into my ear. I smirk and shake my head. "Oh hunny you really think you're clever enough to not get caught whispering to your little skanks?"  His face drops, clearly shocked I heard him. I lean in closer and move his arm from my waist. "You don't own me, you never will again and I hope that one day you realize you can't treat people the way you do because soon you'll end up with no one. Just like you deserve" I grin and stand up. "Lily" he spits but I ignore him and stand up, striding over forwards James. He looks up catching my gaze, I smile brightly at him and he frowns in confusion before he smiles back at me. Merlin he's adorable.

I hear the fast paste footsteps behind me but I don't let myself get distracted. When I get close enough I reach out and pull him into me.
The moment his lips touch mine I see what kissing someone you're truly meant to be with is like, the explosion of passion in this single moment is more than I ever had before. I pull away and look up at him, his dazzling smile making my knees feel weak. "What's going on"
"LILY!" I hear a familiar voice shout behind me. "Hold that thought" I smile turning from him and swinging my fist so it makes contact with the side of joes unexpecting face, he falls to the ground holding his eye. "AND IF YOU EVER TRY TO LAY A HAND ON ME AGAIN I'LL DO MUCH WORSE THAN THAT!" The room erupts into clapping and shouting as I turn back to James, his grin even wider than before. "You wanna tell me what's going on now?" He asks. "I just realized who I'm supposed to be with...you" he pulls me into him and burrows his head in my neck. "Thankyou. For finally understanding" he half laughs in a muffled voice. "I'll never forget it now"