Damaged Goods

Hope

Mara's POV

I really wanted to talk to Wesley about everything but Drew and Keaton burst into the room before we had a chance to say anything. After we came upstairs from the basement, Drew and Keaton had gotten take out from a Chinese restaurant that Drew loves. We all sat at the table and ate our food. I couldn't help but notice Wesley glancing in my direction every now and then. We connected eyes for a split second but quickly looked away when we noticed we were watching each other.

Wesley wanted to say something to me before Keaton and Drew rudely interrupted. I wanted to know what he was gonna say. Now I might never know because he probably forgot.

As I was picking through my vegetables, I felt my phone vibrate underneath my thigh. I looked down and saw it was a text message from Wesley.

Can we talk after supper?- Wes

I looked up at him and saw he was glancing down onto his lap which I assume he was looking at his phone waiting for my reply. I looked down and typed with one of my thumbs,

Yeah, of course. -Mara

I shut my phone off and continued eating. I finished my food and slowly got up from the table.

"Thanks for the food guys. It was great." I said as I put my dish in the dishwasher. I walked past the dining table and glanced at Wesley who was watching me intently. I walked upstairs and to my room. I sat on my bed and took out my phone.

I'll be in my room whenever you're ready. - Mara

I hit send and laid down on my bed. I looked up at the ceiling and felt my phone vibrate against the bed. I picked it up and looked at the screen.

Okay. Be there in 5. - Wes

I locked up my phone and waited nervously for him to come in. I paced the room as I swung my arms back and fourth. The door creaked open and Wesley quickly slid through the door and shut it quietly. I looked at him from head to toe as I waited for him to start the conversation.

"Um, I just wanted to talk to you about some stuff." He said leaning up against the wall.

"Like what?" I asked curiously. I had a feeling he was wanting to be friends again.

"I wanted to say that... I'm sorry. I'm sorry for being such a dick to you and for not even giving you a chance and I know you've been trying really hard lately and I've just disregarded your efforts. " he said with his hands in his back pockets.

"No, I deserve it. I was being a bit of a cunt to you before and you got your eye for an eye." I said as I chuckled.

"I guess I did. Well I want to start over with a clean slate. I want you back in my life again because even though you don't remember, I do and I want things to be back to the way the were before you lost your memories. I know you're still the same girl I liked before the accident and I want to reconnect with her. I hope you will let me." He said with hope in his eyes. I couldn't help but stare into his eyes and see how serious he was. His face was so soft and I could just kiss him right now but he probably doesn't want me like that..

"Wait, you liked me?" I asked with a slight smile on my lips.

"Uh- I mean- well- I guess so yeah. I mean as a friend." He said with an assuring voice. Something fell inside me and I felt heavy. He just wants to be my friend when I want something so much more. I managed to smile convincingly.

"Uh- yeah me too. I'm down to rekindle an old flame. As friends I mean.." I said not wanting to sound crazy obsessed.

"I'm glad to hear that Mara. I just don't want things to be weird between us or anything." He said rubbing his hands together.

I swallowed hard. My body heated up as I heard the words coming out of his mouth. Don't things have to be a little weird in order to get back to normal? I don't know. All i know is that i want him more than just friends and I don't know what happened before the accident, but I didn't care about that. I don't know what changed inside me. I hated him with everything in my body and now I want him more than ever. I have some serious issues to figure out.

WESLEY'S POV

I was lying straight to her face. I know I want her more than just friends but we are both in such a shitty place right now that we would destroy each other. I care about her so much that I can't risk her feelings just because I am unsure of mine. 

"Look.. I just want to be friends right now. I have things to figure out and I need headspace. I hope you understand, Mara. I really do like you. I just don't want to hurt you." I told her walking ever so close to her.

"What makes you think you would hurt me?" She asked curiously looking at my lips and then back at my eyes. 

"I have before, haven't I? I was a monster. What makes you think that monster isn't there?" I asked looking at her mouth. I wanted to kiss her so bad and I know she wants me to kiss her right now but that would ruin everything.

"I haven't seen that monster in a long time. You've been so good to me even though I was being unfair to you." She said reaching down and takes my hand. I rested my head on her forehead and looked in her eyes.

"I don't want to go too fast." I whispered as I looked into her brown eyes. She inhaled and rested her hands on my chest. I shivered at her touch.

"I can go at whatever pace you want." She said feeling the fabric of my shirt. I smiled and wrapped my arms around her waist. I pulled her closer and took in the scent of her perfume.

MARA'S POV

He was holding me so close. My breath hitched as he wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me against his body. I stood on my tippy toes and looked into his eyes. We just stared at each other for the longest time before he leaned down and rested his lips on mine. I held my mouth open as he kissed my bottom lip slowly. I kissed him back as I wrapped my arms around his neck. I held his face in my hands and craved his lips even more. 

Before things got too carried away, we pulled away and just looked into each other's eyes for a while.

"I thought you didn't want to go too fast?" I asked biting my bottom lip as he held onto me as if someone was gonna steal me.

"It's just a kiss love. There's plenty of other things we need to do." He said smirking. I smiled and looked towards the ground.

"You're so beautiful." He said as he lifted my head up to look at him. He was being so genuine and it made me so happy. I haven't had anyone who cared so much about me even when I didn't know it. He was everything I've ever wanted in a guy. I always thought I'd be left alone my whole life without a husband or anything . But, he's giving me hope.

For once in a long time I have hope.