Damaged Goods

With All My Body

MARA'S POV

I could barely sleep last night because I was up all night thinking about what happened between me and Wesley. When I woke up this morning, there was a smile plastered on my face. Butterflies flew around in my stomach at the thought of me being able to see him again today. The thought of him being just a few steps down the hall made me all fuzzy inside.

I got out of bed and walked over to my mirror. My appearance wasn't terrible. My hair was messy but nothing a bun couldn't fix. I throw my hair up into a messy bun and walked out the door. My phone was in my hand and I checked all the snapchats I had received over night. I looked at Facebook and looked for everything new today. I looked up as I walked down the stairs making sure I didn't trip and fall down like a loser.

I made it to the bottom and made my way to the kitchen. I saw Drew and Keaton sitting at the table with their phones in their hands and a bowl of cereal.

"Morning." Drew said as he spotted me walking towards them.

"Good Morning." I said with a smile on my face.

"You're pretty happy today." Keaton said as he examined my face.

"What, I had a good sleep." I said as I opened the fridge door. I grabbed the orange juice and got out a glass. I poured the juice into the glass and started drinking it.

"Wesley hasn't gotten up yet?" I asked trying to sound casual.

"No, he's still in bed." Keaton said as he scrolled through his phone.

I nodded my head and walked to the couch. I turned the TV on and started watching Keeping up with the Kardashians. This show is so dumb. But I kept watching it.

***

I had dosed off on the couch and I could hear people talking in the kitchen.

"Quit getting up my ass about this! I swear I'm taking my pills!"

I could tell the voice belonged to Wesley and he didn't sound happy.

"Wesley, Keaton has had them this whole time and you've been hiding away trying to avoid taking them. There are still 30 pills in this bottle and I counted." Drew said as I heard him shake the pill bottle.

"I still have ones in my room from my previous bottle!" Wesley said.

"That's not true because Keaton looked and you hadn't refilled those from last month. Why don't you want to take your pills? You know they put you in a better mood." Drew said trying to understand Wesley's thinking.

"They change who I am! I don't want to be someone else! I want to be me!" Wesley yelled back.

"You want to be miserable for the rest of your life? Wesley, you know you struggle with anger issues." Drew said in a calm voice.

I slowly got up from the couch and slowly walked towards the kitchen. I peaked around the corner and saw them standing in the kitchen with Wesley boxed in.

"I know they're supposed to help me, but I think there is an alternative to the pills.." He said scratching the back of his head.

"What do you mean? Another drug? What is it?" Drew asked confused and probably thinking Wesley has been out testing the waters.

"Not a drug. A person." He said quieter than usual.

"A person? What do you mean?" Drew asked trying to understand Wesley's thinking and to be honest, I'm trying to understand it myself.

"Yes, a person. If we're being specific, it's Mara." The words came out and my chest tightened.

"Mara? You mean she has the same effect on you that the pills do?" Drew asked awkwardly.

"I can't explain it. When she's around, I feel like I'm on a high and it feels so good to be relaxed. She's my own brand of heroin." He said dazing off somewhere.

I backed away from the wall and slowly walked away from the kitchen. I ran to the stairs and up to my room. I shut the door behind me and just stood in my room thinking about what I had just heard. I make him feel happier? He doesn't seem angry when he's around. I've never noticed a negative behaviour when we are alone.

I needed to do something before this crazy love struck feeling drives me insane! I needed to get ready for the day and get outside. I got dressed and fixed myself up. I was about to walk out my bedroom door until I heard my phone vibrate. I reached into my pocket and looked at the screen.

'I want to see you. Come to my room.' - Wesley

I breathing got heavier and my stomach started to do flips. I replied and said I'd be there in a few minutes. I took a minute to breathe and then I opened the door and walked down the hallway. I knocked on the door and waited for him to open the door. The door slowly opened and I just looked at the ground. The door was open and I never looked up but his hand reached out and yanked me into the room. I stumbled into the room as he shut the door behind me. I turned around and saw his hungry face looking at me. I furrowed my brows as he grabbed me by the hips and crashed his lips on to mine. I kissed back but also confused at the sudden outburst.

"Wesley-"

I couldn't talk because he wouldn't quit kissing me. His lips were hungry for mine but I don't know if I wanted to go that far with him. My body was tingling and my breathing was getting heavier by the second. His hand snaked up my shirt and I gasped into his mouth.

"I just need you so bad right now." He said as he started kissing my ridiculously ticklish neck. I started breathing really heavy as I felt his lips all over my neck. I found my hands getting tangled into his hair. I loved this feeling he was giving me. I couldn't stop myself.

He was making me want him with all of my body.