Prom? (Camren)

Chapter 15

Camila's POV

I don't know what I was thinking when I texted Lauren. Not getting a response from her hurt so bad.

It's been two months. Two months since we broke up and Lauren is already hooking up with other girls.

Mani told Dinah who left her phone unlocked and I read the messages.

That hurt. That hurt so bad.

I just, I need answers.

I can barely get out of bed at this point.

The pain I feel in my chest when I see one of her shirts or get a whiff of her shampoo increases every second. It's like someone is taking a scorching hot piece of metal and is stabbing me in the heart repeatedly.

When I left the tour I didn't intend on leaving our relationship behind as well. I never wanted this. I never wanted us to be over but here I am laying in bed feeling sorry for myself when I'm the one who left.

Yes a lot of this issue is Laurens fault but I do have to take some responsibility for it.

I wonder if things can happen to early or too late. Like was this going to be our future? Were we meant to break up? Was it supposed to be this early? Or this late? Or were we supposed to get through this little bump in the road and keep our relationship alive?

My biggest fear is the fear of the unknown. I don't know what tomorrow will bring. I don't know what the next hour will bring but what I do know is I'll always love her whether it's an hour from now or years from now. She is my first love and that spark, that spark she ignited in my heart has flourished into a blazing fire burning everyday getting bigger and bigger.

I wish she knew. I wish she knew how much I love her but now, now I can't tell her because she's gone.

I'm just going to be angry. I have to be angry. If she asks me how I am I'm going to say angry because it's easier to someone you're angry rather than hurt.

"Mila you need to get up." I was broken out of my thoughts by ally's voice.

"No." I said rolling over towards the window.

"You can't keep skipping school. Come on it will take your mind off of things." I sighed not up for putting on a fight.

I got up brushed my teeth put on a white peace of jeans and I tried to find my favorite 1975 sweatshirt.

"Where the fuck is it!?" I yelled throwing my clothes everywhere.

"Where is what?" I heard Dinah said as she walked into my room.

"My 1975 Black sweatshirt. I can't find it anywhere!" I was throwing everything I could get my hands on.

"Mila." I ignored Dinah.

"Mila. Camila!" I looked up at her my eyes filling with tears.

"Calm down it's just a sweatshirt." That when I lost it. I let my back slide down my wall as I hugged my knees letting all the tears fall onto the carpet.

"I gave it to Lauren. That's where it is, I gave it to Lauren." I said looking up once I realized.

"Fuck. Here we go." Dinah said. I don't think she knew I could hear here.

"Well we better get going." I said standing up and throwing on one of Laurens sweatshirts.

"She does know she's wearing one of Laurens sweatshirts right?" Ally asked Dinah.

"Just let her be."

We made our way downstairs and out the door in a hurry because we were already late for school.

Once we got to school we got our late passes and made our way to English since we share it. I sat all the way in the back.

I put in my headphones and just tried to drown out any and all noise.

"Ms. Cabello!" I heard my teacher yell. I pulled out my headphones in an annoyed manner.

"What!?"

"I have been saying your name for twenty minutes." He said crossing his arms.

"20 minutes? That's a little obsessive don't you think?" I rolled my eyes.

"Excuse me?"

"You're excused." The class broke out into laugher but was instantly shushed. I turned to see Dinah and Ally telling me to shut up but I just ignored it.

"Have you been listening to the class at all?" Mr. Whatever the fuck his name was.

"No not really." I said.

"Do you think listening to music while I'm teaching is appropriate?" He asked.

"Do you think sexually harassing a student is appropriate either?" The whole classes mouths dropped in shock.

I'm not lying. I saw him making a move on Jimmy during lunch one day when I forgot my book. He didn't know I knew.

I asked Jimmy a few days later and he said he was scared to tell anyone invade they thought he was lying.

"Go. Get the fuck out of my class room!" He yelled.

"My pleasure. Oh and you may want to calm down or that vein that's popping out of your forehead my burst." I made my way towards the office where the principle was already waiting for me.

I told him what happened and my English teacher was arrested.

What a day.

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Dinah, Ally and I were all sitting on my couch watching a movie.

Ever since today's events they think I need a baby sitter.

My attention in the tv was interrupted when my phone vibrated on the table.

"Who is it?" Dinah asked.

"Well if you gave me time to actually read the thing then I would have an answer for you."

Dinah flipped me off and I looked down at my phone.

Laur: Are you okay?

Camz: Fuck you.

Laur: Camz I'm being serious. I saw what happened today with your teacher

Camz: How did you find out about that?

Laur: Someone from your class recorded it and sent it to me. Why are you acting like this? You got him fired

Camz: Like you care.

Laur: I do care. I have always cared and always will

Camz: Go fuck yourself

I threw my phone across the room and laid down and cried into the cushion.

Luckily Ally and Dinah knew not to talk to me so they let me cry it out.

And once again I cried myself to sleep that night.